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Let's have another good week everyone
oh I should probably cw this. Family issues.
My dad just made a comment about my hair getting long and honestly idk how to process it. I'm tired of processing things. I just want to be trans, and in an accepting environment.
I don't know he wasn't particularly bad about it or anything, it was something like "So, are you just going to let your hair grow out or what?". My hair is a lot longer then usual (which I'm loving). I don't know how he meant it, I don't want to spend hours thinking about it, I just want to be done.
This is getting to me more then it should. I think I'm going to have to postpone coming out. Damn that makes me sad. Maybe I'll go lay down soon.
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Yup, vibes are fucked. I'm not ready to come out at all. You know what that means. No hrt. I'm so sad. Trying not to spiral too much but it's hard. I want to transition so badly.
Is it possible you could sneak it?
I think I'm going to look into that as an option.
I'm sorry you're going through this :meow-hug:
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My parents criticised my hair a lot too, I'd assume they said something else afterwards that was worse. I know it can hurt a lot more than you'd expect it to, to have something you're so happy in to be such a point of ire.
Thanks Seryph. It just really shows how not up for talking about being trans I am, especially with him. I've been so close to coming out. But I just can't handle anything.
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I'm sorry. I know your parents were/are pretty bad.
I don't know what your family is like, but have you tried just telling them that you are loving growing your hair out? Cis people are stupid and probably won't think it means anything trans related.
Feel this hard. Not sure why but I've always had a thing about comments from anyone other than specific people, mostly friends. Like it can be a compliment, but if its from a stranger, or especially from immediate family my brain goes into fight or flight. Like only a select specific set of people deemed safe by my brain should speak on that.
The idea of them noticing something even tangentially related to my early steps towards transition seem daunting to say the least.
Glad I'm not crazy
Hair is something that gets a lot of attention it seems. My parents also asked if I was growing it out. Granted, my step-mom is also the person who has been cutting my hair for the last decade, so not really surprising she'd ask. Hopefully its just curiosity.