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Let's have another good week everyone 
dysphoric day and crotch shaving
Gf was afraid to sleep next to me last night. Essentially still gendering me as a boy and afraid I would be horny in the morning and she'd feel pressured into sex.
Snuggling at night was the middle ground we found during our last argument. Not every night but I requested we snuggle a few times a week so we could have physical intimacy. The first night went great and I woke up feeling more bonded and secure.
Last night we tried and she was scared so went to sleep in her room. Even after telling her I'm barely getting morning erections in the morning and that I had no intention of asking her for sex when we woke up.
Feeling like I have to do so much to not get coded as a boy. Change my voice, take out a loan to laser my face, etc. And that no matter what people who knew me as a boy are still going to see my dead name when they see me.
Thought I would shave my crotch since I need to for laser tomorrow. And hoped the shaving would help.
Staring at my penis and testicles for an hour has made everything worse. When I used to shave down there it felt kinda sexy. Right now I just feel like crying.
You can get cheap laser on groupon
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I completely agree with you, its such a bad feeling sometimes.
I can completely relate and I'm so sorry you have to struggle with these feelings too. I can't do much to help you, but I'm wishing you all the best.
That sucks, good luck.
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Is morning horny a morning person thing? I generally feel miserable when I wake up and morning erections were just another layer of discomfort. I only JO in the morning once and it sucked.