Fanart is by Syurii22.

Toyosatomimi no Miko is a character in the Touhou Project series introduced in its 13th installment, Ten Desires.

Miko was once Prince Shoutoku, a Japanese leader in the 600s known for promoting Buddhism and streamlining the Japanese government. In the Touhou lore, she was visited by Taoist hermit Seiga Kaku, who had heard about Miko’s longing for immortality. Seiga introduced her to Taoism, but she rejected it as a religion unfit for placating an entire country. She was intrigued by its promise of immortality, however, and privately converted to it, advocating for Buddhism to keep Japan stable. After drinking an “immortality elixir” (mercury sulfide), however, she was forced to let go of her body and become a supernatural hermit like Seiga, notably taking on the form of a woman, making her a canonically trans character (lets-fucking-go).

After convincing a hermit from a rival clan (Mononobe no Futo) to sleep without decaying, Miko followed in suit, waiting for a time where a Taoist Japan would revive her in search of guidance. However, Buddhist monks were able to keep her mausoleum sealed, and the legends surrounding her were slowly brushed off- which led to her transportation into Gensokyo, where the folklore of old is a reality of everyday life.

When she awoke in Gensokyo, it was right after Buddhist monk Byakuren Hijiri opened her own temple, however, leading to a surge of divine spirits across the realm, setting up the events of Ten Desires.

What look like headphones on her are canonically earmuffs- Shoutoku was allegedly able to discern between ten questions asked at once, an ability carried by Miko (although with her enhanced abilities, she can also analyze each person and determine their inner desires (thus the title of the game))- although it means her hearing is highly sensitive and has to be muffled to prevent pain.


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  • yewler [she/her]
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    2 months ago

    Are there YouTube channels or other resources made by trans folk that don't feel dysphoria? I overflow with euphoric feelings, bit I don't experience dysphoria (or if I do I don't realize it). I'm told that one doesn't need to experience dysphoria to be trans, but literally everything I've found online of people discussion their experience in detail has been the "I've known since I was 3 that I was a [gender]. Transition literally saved my life because the dysphoria was so intense."

    I'm trying to figure myself out and it's so hard when I can't find the people who are supposedly just like me. I'm not sure how to process stuff without help, but it feels isolating that I can't find stories from people in my boat. It also adds to the "not trans enough to be trans" feelings, which I'm afraid are returning.

    I feel way to euphoric even the smallest things, but it's so hard to figure out what that even means to me without hearing the stories of those who have been through it. I feel lost I guess is what I'm saying.

    • magi [null/void]M
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      2 months ago

      I personally don't have a lot of dysphoria, I knew I was different from young and knew I wasn't really like other cis people but I didn't get a lot of dysphoria around it.

      I'll dig about and see if I can find any resources

    • ashinadash [she/her]
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      2 months ago

      but literally everything I've found online of people discussion their experience in detail has been the "I've known since I was 3 that I was a [gender]. Transition literally saved my life because the dysphoria was so intense."

      yapping

      I want to apologise on behalf of all the dorks out there that this is the only narrative being voiced. We should be better than this by now honestly.

      Dysphoria is a big part of it for a lot of people, but you don't have to hate what you were assigned, literally just enjoying another gender more makes you trans. Feeling euphoria in everything but no dysphoria is based tbh.

      Wish I had anything to recommend you, Idk if trans people talk about trans shit on Youtube though.

    • TerminalEncounter [she/her]
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      2 months ago

      Before I cracked my egg, I wouldve never said the general malaise I felt was dysphoria. The comparison is like being a fish in water - sometimes dysphoria can be so complete and it's all you know, and then when you're pulled out of the water you have a deep understanding "oh I'm actually literally breathing this." Which is what happened to me a few months after figuring out I was trans.

      Oh, yeah, I have never liked looking at or hearing myself in videos since puberty - oh, yeah, I do do a lot of drag inclusing on halloween or any chance I had - oh, yeah, I've never looked at myself in a mirror for 10 years - oh yeah, I've always been jealous of the ways girls write letters - and on and on. None of that I would've attributed to gender dysphoria even though from where I am now - it was all gender dysphoria!!

      Anyway, some people despite it all really don't feel dysphoria - but they do feel it's twin, gender euphoria which is what to me, being trans is all about!

      • yewler [she/her]
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        2 months ago

        I said in another post that I have a hard time trusting my emotions. I had my first therapist appointment yesterday, so I'm very new to unpacking this, but I think I'm significantly more depressed than I thought I was, and have been actively suppressing it.

        "You have no reason to be sad! Clearly you're faking it, stop that!"

        I think it's very likely the case that the negative emotions I think are fake are probably my actual real feelings.

        All of this to say that I genuinely have no idea why I'm depressed, but it's possible it's dysphoria related and I'm the fish in water.

        You may be onto something considering I don't like looking at myself in the mirror or videos. I just assumed I thought I was ugly, but who knows, it might be trans related.

        Reading your post has me realizing that I have this background fantasy that someone will remark that they're surprised I have as nice handwriting as I do because it looks feminine lmao.

        • QueerCommie [she/her, fae/faer]
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          2 months ago

          Part of my low levels of dysphoria is probably my already having socially transitioned to a decent extent. I didn’t feel my emotions for ages, but for the last year I’ve been more mindful and dealing with my alexithymia.

        • rayne [she/her]
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          2 months ago

          Much of my depression and disassociation has been dysphoria and anxiety related.

          Have you read the gender dysphoria bible? There's a section on gender euphoria. It is dysphoria. They're two sides of the same coin.

          • yewler [she/her]
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            2 months ago

            I didn't know the gender dysphoria bible existed. I guess I'll have to find that.

            • rayne [she/her]
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              2 months ago

              Here's the section on euphoria

              https://genderdysphoria.fyi/en/euphoria

      • magi [null/void]M
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        2 months ago

        I don't get either euphoria or dysphoria, I have BDD but that isn't gender related.