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On this mega I shall take the opportunity to rant about one of my favorite things: the Webnovel UNJUST DEPTHS!
Do you love transgenders?
Do you love communism?
Do you love queer romance?
Do you love killing fascists in a giant fucking mech?
Would a plotline with all of these things happening in a underwater retro-futuristic gundam setting intrigue you?
Especially if its actually really well written with good characters, rich worldbuilding, and a marxist leninist transfem author?
All of the answers should be: YES I DO or else I WILL BAN YOU
Since you obviously love all of those things then Unjust Depths is perfect for YOU yes YOU! It is DESTINY
The Imbrian Ocean is at a time of severe instability. The monarch of the vast Empire that spans its unjust depths (:3) is sick and nearing death, every territory of the ocean now vying to carve their own Destiny out of the chaos. From the Volk fascists 
, Zionists 
(they literally will not die why are they still here oh my god), The 'Anarchists' (social chauvanists) 
in Bosporus, and the monarchs 
of each vast noble domain, each vies for power and prestige no matter who they crush underfoot, but it would be a pretty depressing story without a bright light in the dark.
On the edge of the Empire sits the glorious Union! The (Soviet) Union 
is a socialist federation of three states (and one anarchist mountain 
)that were formerly slave colonies under the Imbrian Empire until they broke away in a fierce liberation war. They have spent the last 20 years since then building themselves up. Whether they be Human 
, Shimmi 
(Catgirls who usually follow a religion closely related to modern Islam), and Kattaran 
(a hybrid humanoid species with characteristics of sea life ranging from sharks to cuttlefish)building socialism side by side.
First lead under the revolutionary leader Dashka Kansal, then the Idealist Ahwalia who lead the country to near ruin in pursuit of building a utopia on pillars of sand, then under the scientific socialist 
leadership of the Grand Marshall of the Union, Bhavani Jayanskar (I love Jayanskar so much shes basically as if Stalin, Lenin, and Zhukov were rolled into the same person but was a black lesbian badass who wore the uniform REALLY WELL)(she aint the main character at all tho shes only in very few scenes i just love her so much). Under Jayanskar, the Union has been growing their economy to both eliminate hunger and give everyone a home 
, but also growing their military capabilities for the inevitable return of the Empire. The Union is alone, but with the people by its side nothing, not even Destiny, can snuff out true freedoms light. 
As war wages between the Empire and Republic (basically underwater USA) once more over the lands between them, the facade begins to finally crack...
And a border conflict between the Empire and Union escalate, and the dreaded reconquest begins.
Amidst this turmoil, lives our main characters (yes there are multiple and all of them are lovely). Each of whom I personally love dearly, and are very well characterized. Many are soldiers of the Union, some are scientists, some are divers (mech pilots), some are lost strands finding new meaning after joining this band of Brigands
All are Communists 
All serve the Union 
All would gladly give their lives to defending socialism 
but even they would have little inkling of the adventure set in store for them as the lands beneath the waves erupt in fire, fury, and revolt
Can these transgender badasses kick fascist ass?
Can they kiss? (oh my god please kiss ISTG THERE IS SO MUCH SHIPPING AHHHH ITS GLORIOUS)
FIND OUT HERE: https://unjustdepths.com/
please do or else I will pout incessantly
just try it pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase i need to talk to someone about it after Cromalin went AFK
(I miss her, she was a real one)
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CW: Questions about masturbation and pornography. Spoilers for Nevada.
Reading Nevada (only up to the beginning of part 2, page 177), one thing that I'm struck by, and haven't necessarily seen elsewhere, is the description of frequent masturbation by both Maria and James. Maria (pre-transition) and James are both described to masturbate on a daily basis. Something that I was also doing basically throughout my entire 20s. I can relate especially to James's experience of starting off with "vanilla" pornography, and then switching to caption pornography to actually finish.
To not get into too much detail, I am curious if this is a particular experience for the characters/the author, or does this reflect more broadly for trans people? I guess it doesn't really matter either way, but it's never something I've seen come up before in trans (well, maybe more accurately gender questioning) resources.
One thing that I find interesting, is just coming out (to myself) has been enough to change my libido and habits. Where masturbation is something that I would do 1-2 times a day, I've only masturbated once over the past week. My appetite has also completely changed. I had a habit of compulsively grazing and cleaning my plate, but I have been recognizing when I'm full and it's much easier to control my calorie intake. I don't know if this is just due to keeping a detailed diary and engaging in much more self-reflection, the effects of depression from dysphoria (although I generally feel happier), or breaking free from sexual/gender repression.
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As an egg, I masturbated daily due to libido. Almost always thought of it as a chore. I had a hard time finishing though and I think its mostly because I assumed stereotypical male fantasies would help and they had the opposite effect and the times where I actually had a good time, the fantasies were generally from a female perspective.
Frequency/libido didn't really change with egg crack, but it did seem somewhat less of a chore (but still was a chore) due to changes in expectations. HRT reducing my libido has been great.
As for porn genres and mediums, it varied a lot. But I'm ace and one of the main purposes of porn for me is just to keep me from being distracted, so I can finish (although gender transformation/bending was certainly a genre that stood out as a favorite pre-egg-crack). Caption stuff and doujins have certainly been a heavily part of it.
As far as eating habits, I have a bad habit of losing weight and then slowly gaining it back (and often more), but egg cracking gave me motivation to continue losing more weight for a bit. I generally gain weight during the summer due to work schedule though, so I'm at about egg-crack weight again (borderline-obese).
mental health/sexuality/porn stuff
Haven't read Nevada and don't really know the characters or what it's about other than there are trans characters and it seems highly recommended here so I might end up checking it out.
In my experience, I looked at more porn and masturbated more as an egg. Part of it was being young, dumb and full of, you know, the thing; part of it was having higher t, but I think in retrospect a big part of it was an unhealthy self soothing behavior dealing with major depression, and being closeted and not knowing my own identity and sexuality as a teen, I think it was an outlet for dysphoria unconsciously.
After coming to terms with myself and starting to transition, the worst, most apathetic/lethargic and anhedonic parts of my depression lessened, and my porn watching and masturbating decreased quite a bit. When I did still look at porn, it became more about seeing partners with chemistry, or more abstract fantasy stuff that was about an unlikely or risqué scenario and dialogue driven rather than the spectacle of "oh (performer) is so hot" or "(gender)+(body type) (horny derogatory term) does (specific sex act)." The more comfortable I've become with my sexuality and gender, the less often I feel the need to frequently masturbate, I read erotica more often than I used to, and masturbating is more about the erogenous buildup and exploration than an urgent race to the finish.
(From what I've heard from other people, that might be more of a "body that's running on E predominantly instead of T" thing though? Trans mascs might have the opposite experience after starting transition.)
While not universal it is a common experience that you tend to hear within the community.
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I wouldn't vouch for other trans people, but I will admit that I was the same way. And like you, I was that way into my 20s, not just as a teen, which seems to be the more stereotypical age for doing that among cishet men.
Same for me, and I don't know about you, but back then at the end I often felt a sense of shame, which I don't anymore. Also now when I do it, it's more about focusing on the sensation throughout my body, it's harder to get off by looking at porn.
I swear I made this same post like a month ago lol. I think it's just because I pay attention to and care about how I feel now, whereas before I assumed feeling like shit all the time was just the default state of being alive, and making yourself feel shittier by overeating is just how eating is supposed to work.
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Been curious how common this is for trans vs cis people. Like, there's the meme about guys having "post-nut clarity/regret." Wasn't something I really experienced personally though.
waow...
I can remember reading Nevada as a teen and being like... "Woah they caption stuff to make it weird gender porn? Sheesh!" I had no idea that or Fictionmania was a thing before Nevada. As a kid I was a little bit of a joinking-it addict as a kid though honestly. It's fairly common and bless our orange book for bringing it up!