Final Fantasy XI
Final Fantasy XI is the eleventh numbered installment in the… Okay, you know what it is, I’m just going to tell you about one of the storylines!
During the Wings of the Goddess expansion, adventurers will be sent back in time to experience the events of the Crystal War, a cataclysmic event that is the foundation for conflicts of the modern-day timeline. Should an adventurer choose to serve the Kingdom of San d’Oria, they will be immersed in the story of the Young Griffons—a group of children who would see themselves knights, many of whom grow into prominent characters later in life.
Among the Young Griffons, the player will find Bistillot, a shy boy who doesn’t like to be seen. With his penchant for engineering, shy demeanor, and lack of combat potential, Bistillot prefers to spend his time inside of an orcish war machine that he was able to repair to working condition.
He is often seen before he is heard, with his signature phrase, “HAAAALLOOOOOOOOO” being used to hail the adventurer. Through the course of the story, Bistillot finds his way, even contributing to the war effort with his engineering skills.
However, when another member of the Young Griffons is kidnapped and taken to the present day, the adventurer must return to the present day and reunite with the Young Griffons’ present selves! The adventurer’s first contact in the present day is Bistillot. When the adventurer hears the signature “HAAAALLOOOOOOO,” Bistillot approaches the player, but what the player sees is… a woman?? She introduces herself as Bostilette, a “friend of Bistillot.”
After the rescue mission, Bostilette comes clean. She is, of course, the very same Bistillot who was a little boy twenty years earlier. She explains that she was very sick as a baby, so her parents gave her a boy’s name so that she would be stronger and survive the illness. Once she overcame the illness, she was comfortable to reclaim her name and gender. Well, that closes the book on that story, except… I’ve decided that’s bullshit!
I have unilaterally decided that Bostilette is trans, the sickness she had was dysphoria, she stayed in the orcish war machine because she was an egg, and I hope you all agree!
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unsolicited advice
Try to search for where the source of your thoughts lies. Do not think your way into it, just let the thoughts happen and look. You will not find a place because it does not exist, but I find it quiets the mind. It also builds insight and you can believe your thoughts less over time.
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I mean I know what the source of these thoughts is. Its literal, actual things that are happening on a macro level to the world around me and some things that effect me personally, on a micro level. Things I can't change, some things that are getting worse. I have let these thoughts happen, wash over me. I am upset by actual, real things.
I hope I don't sound upset with you, it isn't you, its everything else.
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I totally understand. Such practices can stop the flow of thoughts if that is what you want. Admittedly, it works best when my head’s just fucking with me. When outside stuff is causing me to meltdown best I can do is give in to doom and hope I cry soon. I want to help, I’m sorry. Hope you feel better.
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Yea, I mean some times/things are just my head fucking with me. Crying would be nice. I know you do, thank you. I always appreciate it.
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Not equivalent, but I’ve dealt with an evening of annoyances, disturbances, and unmet expectations, and now my routine’s screwed. Nothing’s wrong with me (well, maybe an allist would be fine with this), the world is just cruel.