Final Fantasy XI
Final Fantasy XI is the eleventh numbered installment in the… Okay, you know what it is, I’m just going to tell you about one of the storylines!
During the Wings of the Goddess expansion, adventurers will be sent back in time to experience the events of the Crystal War, a cataclysmic event that is the foundation for conflicts of the modern-day timeline. Should an adventurer choose to serve the Kingdom of San d’Oria, they will be immersed in the story of the Young Griffons—a group of children who would see themselves knights, many of whom grow into prominent characters later in life.
Among the Young Griffons, the player will find Bistillot, a shy boy who doesn’t like to be seen. With his penchant for engineering, shy demeanor, and lack of combat potential, Bistillot prefers to spend his time inside of an orcish war machine that he was able to repair to working condition.
He is often seen before he is heard, with his signature phrase, “HAAAALLOOOOOOOOO” being used to hail the adventurer. Through the course of the story, Bistillot finds his way, even contributing to the war effort with his engineering skills.
However, when another member of the Young Griffons is kidnapped and taken to the present day, the adventurer must return to the present day and reunite with the Young Griffons’ present selves! The adventurer’s first contact in the present day is Bistillot. When the adventurer hears the signature “HAAAALLOOOOOOO,” Bistillot approaches the player, but what the player sees is… a woman?? She introduces herself as Bostilette, a “friend of Bistillot.”
After the rescue mission, Bostilette comes clean. She is, of course, the very same Bistillot who was a little boy twenty years earlier. She explains that she was very sick as a baby, so her parents gave her a boy’s name so that she would be stronger and survive the illness. Once she overcame the illness, she was comfortable to reclaim her name and gender. Well, that closes the book on that story, except… I’ve decided that’s bullshit!
I have unilaterally decided that Bostilette is trans, the sickness she had was dysphoria, she stayed in the orcish war machine because she was an egg, and I hope you all agree!
Join our public Matrix server! https://matrix.to/#/#tracha:chapo.chat
As a reminder, be sure to properly give content warnings and put sensitive subjects behind proper spoiler tags. It's for the mental health of not just your comrades, but yourself as well. Here is a screenshot of where to find the spoiler button.
body image issues/maybe dysphoria?
It be cool if I was androgynous, been maybe not even a year since I worked out some better healthier eating habits/managing and or coming to terms with hunger. I want to keep pushing through but I'm also painfully aware of my self sabotage. Changing my weight something I thought was either gonna be constant at best or worse as depression kept piledriving me is scary. Main reason I've been thinking of gender recently is the small change I been seeing in my weight been making me feel I could be more than what I was stuck as.
While back my sister after moving out left a lot of clothes and well I tried some on. Shit was fun but a major damper was I'm built like a fridge so barely anything but the stretchiest stuff would fit. Maybe I'm just kicking it down the road to figure out but if I could flip from one side of presenting masc to femme that be fucking sweet but I worry if I even can. Caught between
and it's 
self sabotage coming in asking if it'll even be worth it.
Been hearing the word fluidity and idk I feel like I can play around more as I lose more weight. Idk if I can get down to twink levels as originally planned but something different from what I am is a start. Anyway gotta go been holding up the wendy's cashier line