I had a mental breakdown and dropped out of college and I'm stuck with debt that I'll never pay off :agony-deep:
I impulsively got a tattoo of the three arrows before finding out it had anti-communist connotations.
Oh fuck lol. I have a worse tattoo that I have to warn people about when getting intimate for the first time, but I don't want to dox myself. I wish I just had three arrows, but I feel you that is embarrassing.
FWIW I'm in an org with an anarchist with three arrows and I've never thought less of him for it.
Whoa, you can't just say that and not share. This has gotta be some real crazy shit.
got a friend who is irish by birth but lived in england since he was an infant, he got a tattoo of a bulldog doing a bicep pose in front of a union jack on his arm age 14. moved back to ireland as an adult and is fully Reunification Now now. laugh every time i think about it. love him so much, what a knobhead.
Just find a talented and based tattoo artist to touch it up:ukkk:
Met a guy on grindr a couple months back who was an absolute charming sweetheart, absolute gentleman who would pick me up in his car and drive off on what he called "our daily adventure". On top of that he was really fucking good looking, well-muscled and in shape with really broad shoulders, tan skinned, muscled arms, lots of tattoos and a mischievous smile. He was just oozing with like really rugged masculine charm.
We're both of Mexican descent (I was born in Mexico he was born in Orange County) but he didn't know Spanish so he got a kick out of learning Spanish from me, and got to a really basic kindergarten level (enough to talk to his dad who was deported back to Mexico a few years back).
Sex was incredible, we had a real nice rapport and we would often fuck around in rooms for hours on end that he would pay for and eat out and hang on his dime (always insisted on paying no matter what, and sometimes would tuck a hundred dollar bill in my back pocket), and he kept toying with the idea of making us "official" when we would cuddle afterwards.
It all came crashing apart when he revealed 5 months into dating that
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He's a member of a south side pomona mexican gang and that the tattoos indicated which set he belonged to and that the reason why we hung out at very specific spots and sometimes refused to go to certain areas was because his gang was at conflict with the Crips.
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He made a living selling cocaine, heroin, meth and ecstasy and that's why he always was flush with money.
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He met me when he recently came out of his third stint in prison
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He was MARRIED and had 5 kids, the oldest of which was 15 years old already
So I had to respectfully cut that relationship short and keep it at friendship level, which led to near-daily phone calls of him calling in tears begging for a second chance and me telling him to take care of his fucking kids and wear a fucking condom if he's gonna fuck around.
We're on friendly terms rn, and he told me he's toying with the idea of going to community college to get into carpentry/woodworking which I told him if he does, I would tap my dad to get him a job as a union-carpenter but this is 100% a ploy to get in my pants again since he seems non-committal about it.
My L is that every single guy I have any kind of rapport with of any kind is always either deep into crime or harboring a really serious addiction to meth/heroin.
He’s a member of a south side pomona mexican gang and that the tattoos indicated which set he belonged to and that the reason why we hung out at very specific spots and sometimes refused to go to certain areas was because his gang was at conflict with the Crips.
I don't know why but this twist was really funny to me
Eh, my concern was more about being a relationship where he would get murdered lol, the idea of like being home and being informed by word of mouth (since he was DL) and basically having to mourn from a distance while also being a homewrecker was not appealing to me.
He legit offered multiple times to go legit and leave his wife/kids but I was like: "yes to the former, no to the latter" but I knew in my heart of hearts he wasn't serious about the former.
Damn that is a crazy twist! Pomona gangs and upland crips can be in some scary business, but it sounded nice while it lasted.
I was like > < this close to saying yes to him when he wanted to go official but he hid a lot of shit from me and thats a big no from me.
Plus I don't need to be the gay version of a gang-widow lol
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hell yeah mentally ill dropout gang.
i destroyed a relationship with an incredible person i could have spent the rest of my life with out of fear and stupidity.
That sucks a lot comrade.
I don't want to belittle your pain but a lot of us have had to endure earlier versions of ourselves fucking up good relationships, but have gone on to grow and become great partners even with mental illnesses.
My point is that the fact that you fucked up a relationship is not an essential part of you. Sounds like you made an irreconcilable mistake, but that doesn't mean you won't be a great partner to somebody eventually.
every day i think about it a little less but it's been like 2 years now lol
I was too scared to say "I love you" to the point where it was enough for my ex to break it off
Ugh... Same... Repeatedly. People, don't be like this, it hurts everyone, get it sorted before it wrecks everything again, please. :[
Not really my fault, but I hooked up with a Nazi chaser appropriating punk aesthetics a few months back. It's an L not only because I fucked a Nazi but also because he keeps making new profiles after I block him in a really stalkery way, confirming my post-hookup fears
:yea:
Yes, that's an understatement. He became completely obsessed witn me basically immediately, texting me 50 times a day and calling me a goddess and stuff. I held off on blocking for like a week hoping he would just give up and deciding whether.and how it would be safe and worth it to doxx him, but no, even with no replies he was content to write me sonnets and send me cooking videos from 6am every morning. I think this is like the fourth profile I blocked now? I started using grindr from android studio to spoof location easier after this guy.
Shockingly, not the scariest thing that happened to me from that app, but this one won't go away.
not the scariest thing that happened to me from that app
Holy shit
He knows where you live? Shit. Get a gun, idk, fuck.
I moved, but I already have guns anyway. A regular I see also told me "You seem like the type of person who would have a stalker." :what-the-hell:
I don't have a clue, but I just changed the subject because free drinks
So many of these answers are things I've done too. Each entry in the thread is like part of a checklist:
Terrible anxiety and can't talk to people offline (or online usually) + terrible attention span, ✔
Have become entirely unemployable, ✔
Mentally ill dropout, ✔
Low self esteem causing me to sabotage any potential relationship, ✔
One true leftist, ✔
Heroin addict (I'm on subs now), ✔
Once had a psychotic break (though mine was drug induced) and caused irreparable damage to self and relationships, ✔
a series of choices i've made in my life has now made me entirely unemployable lmao
Also same lol
A .08 is still a DUI apparently. So that's any job that requires a clean license, which is a surprising amount of them lmao
On top of that I have a huge gap in employment due to attempting self-employed stuff, caused initially by the aforementioned DUI
Can't you still creatively market the self-employed stuff on a resume? As for the DUI, hopefully this worker shortage helps with that with employers more desparate.
Oh I try to, but I don't seem to be getting any hits on it. I've gone over it a lot.
Hope you’re able to get that expunged. A .08 is frustratingly close to the limit 😔
it was literally just the difference of about 10 or 15 minutes lol, it sucked so hard. It was a few years ago, a huge big pain in the ass long-term. Don't recommend it.
I was pulled for swerving out of the way of a possum while a pig was up my ass in my neighborhood hahaha. It was insane.
In Aqua Teen Hunger Force Master Shake once said, "I am unemployed and unemployable!"
i uhhh broke my fucking bed cuz i'm too fat
i look forward to seeing this on kiwifarms
this happened to me and the bf once. legit giant hole in the middle of the bed lol
I've ghosted every potential friend I've ever had :big-cool:
also gave myself an eating disorder which wasted years of my life and fucked up my entire digestive system
i am but a few degrees of separation away (friend's dads) from personally knowing barack obama :doomjak:
I have this but for Tony Blair, apparently the guy just lives in America sometimes and my friend's friend was his neighbor. they would not help me find him when they discovered I just wanted to throw stuff at him.
I'm 26 and never had a girlfriend or s*x or anything I've never even really had friends lol
part of it is likely having a toxic family who, while not as bad as it could be, damaged me enough to lead me to where I am now but I'm also old and probably have spent enough time as an "adult" that I could have fixed this years ago so it is also probably a big personal failing on my part
I have other huge L's but they would get me banned/ostracized from this place lol
26
old
I do not understand people who think like this.
Anyway, same position here except I'm 31 so you don't have to feel too bad
I had two ideas for a series of novels. One of them was a fun and relatively "harmless" soft sci-fi action-adventure series with a lot of treasure hunting themes and exploration elements with that timeless trope of a few misfits sharing space on the same starship through it all...
... and the other was a shamelessly leftist politically loaded dystopian fiction setting that went in swinging at a lot of stuff I see as very, very wrong with the world and where it seems to be going in the near future.
I should have wrote the "safe" series first and used that to build up momentum for the other instead of picking fights with :so-true: billionaire stans and their fever dreams of Mars colonies and singularity escapism. The negative reviews I got were almost entirely "I don't like your politics" dressed up with a few more words, and that hurts presence on the algorithm. :desolate:
Do you think you'll come around and do the other stories under a pen name or something like that?
I already write under a pen name, but I did consider a different pen name for the other series. But, I was also considering trying to rekindle interest in my previous series with any success I might see with my future work. I'm not yet decided if I want to start over when it comes to building up my writing history.
You should go full goadstool and dox yourself here, I'm sure we could at least marginally help with algorithm momentum
I've posted links to my series here before.
Ah well, may as well do it again. Third book, the series finale, is coming out this year once I'm done editing and revising it after hearing back from beta readers.
Amazon online reviews tend to be where the most damage was done. Goodreads was... fine, I suppose.
I sincerely hope I wrote something entertaining, not just "help me boost this because I could use more algorithm visiblity" but the first chapters of the first book are openly available on the website so you can at least get a first impression.
https://www.tulpatrilogy.com/
Hey man, just keep on writing. How many writers are there who made it with their first book? Don't become discouraged. I'm impressed with how good it all looks.
Thanks. The encouragement is appreciated. I do think I should have started with the "safer" book. It doesn't mean I would have put less effort into it, but looking back, I should have saved my leftist ranting for after I established myself as an author. Sure, I could get shot down then but at least I'd reach more people first. :bloomer:
i'm terminally online :deeper-sadness:
i've terrible anxiety and have always struggled with talking with people irl :yea:
Yup. Fucked up attention span from being terminally online. No books, just memes.
I have the big sad :agony-shivering: And I have never seriously sought treatment
It's not as bad as some of the others on here but I could be doing so much more for it and I'm just not
I'm a 31-year-old male virgin who lives at home, never had a girlfriend, hasn't had a job in almost 5 years. And I feel too ashamed of all of these things to try doing things that could fix them
My best hope is that I will be able to get on disability somehow...
