I keep having dysphoria revelations today and I don’t like this
more dysphoria talk
holy shit the reason why I don’t talk to myself anymore and gradually stopped doing it starting around middle school is the dysphoria. Isn’t it. I’ve subconsciously stopped using my voice when alone because I’m uncomfortable with it. As a kid I used to write stories by narrating them out loud to myself and I haven’t felt that fountain of creativity for years and the voice dysphoria is a big part of that, isn’t it. My brain really was doing the most in order to keep my dysphoria hidden from me, how have I not realized this until now.
I’ve subconsciously stopped using my voice when alone because I’m uncomfortable with it.
Holy shit I didn't realize until now, but yea same. I'll still "talk" but there's no noise. Go through all the motions of speaking without the voice (idk if this makes sense).
Yeah, in the rare occasions when I do talk to myself these days my voice generally comes out as a weird quiet half-whisper, and it feels so awkward to me that I generally won’t talk for long.
Good luck on voice training if you go for it, I should do some of it too. Admittedly I feel quite lucky that T deepens the voice, I wish E did the reverse for transfem comrades.
I keep having dysphoria revelations today and I don’t like this
more dysphoria talk
holy shit the reason why I don’t talk to myself anymore and gradually stopped doing it starting around middle school is the dysphoria. Isn’t it. I’ve subconsciously stopped using my voice when alone because I’m uncomfortable with it. As a kid I used to write stories by narrating them out loud to myself and I haven’t felt that fountain of creativity for years and the voice dysphoria is a big part of that, isn’t it. My brain really was doing the most in order to keep my dysphoria hidden from me, how have I not realized this until now.
Holy shit I didn't realize until now, but yea same. I'll still "talk" but there's no noise. Go through all the motions of speaking without the voice (idk if this makes sense).
I should try voice training :/
Yeah, in the rare occasions when I do talk to myself these days my voice generally comes out as a weird quiet half-whisper, and it feels so awkward to me that I generally won’t talk for long.