even more bluntly: What were those completely and utterly ridiculous thoughts that you had in hindsight that make you wonder how on earth you ever even managed to convince yourself that you were cis? I'll start:
I remember browsing through a bunch of trans memes on reddit (already very cisgenderly) and I kept coming across ones that were some variation on stepping out of a time machine to meet your past self as a different gender. For maybe about 2 months until I realized that it really was true, I admitted to myself and two of my close friends who are both trans women that i would just not be surprised if I stepped out of the time machine from the future as a trans woman. my only thoughts on that were basically to laugh it and say "yeah that tracks". Somehow I could admit that I think it's totally plausible to be a trans girl in the future yet still be 100% cis
anyone have any other fun thoughts like that?
probably could have figured it out years before too if I knew just how common of a feeling that was. I knew I was bi since I was like 16, and I knew that romantic attraction a gender really changes depending on where it's coming from, but I always felt like WLW just beat out MLM romance and I was jealous that I couldn't do it. In retrospect, it is really funny to consider how I only really liked men in a straight way