I feel like I'll always regret spending my 20s trying so desperately to live up to everyone's expectations while disregarding my own.
I feel this in my bones. I frequently wish I'd spent less of my late teens and twenties trying to be a good christian boy and more figuring out who I actually am, instead of pushing all that so deep down that I didn't even realize it was there until I started deprogramming in my late 20s and finally ran across the concept of non-cis gender identities in my early 30s.
Saaaame timeline for me too! So much time living to other peoples expectations, suppressing every hint of personality or self expression if it conflicted with what was "proper". It's a bit sad to think about lost time, but I love who I am today and the broken pieces of my past life are slowly healing or finally being shed as dead weight.
I feel this in my bones. I frequently wish I'd spent less of my late teens and twenties trying to be a good christian boy and more figuring out who I actually am, instead of pushing all that so deep down that I didn't even realize it was there until I started deprogramming in my late 20s and finally ran across the concept of non-cis gender identities in my early 30s.
Saaaame timeline for me too! So much time living to other peoples expectations, suppressing every hint of personality or self expression if it conflicted with what was "proper". It's a bit sad to think about lost time, but I love who I am today and the broken pieces of my past life are slowly healing or finally being shed as dead weight.