Fanart is by Syurii22.

Toyosatomimi no Miko is a character in the Touhou Project series introduced in its 13th installment, Ten Desires.

Miko was once Prince Shoutoku, a Japanese leader in the 600s known for promoting Buddhism and streamlining the Japanese government. In the Touhou lore, she was visited by Taoist hermit Seiga Kaku, who had heard about Miko’s longing for immortality. Seiga introduced her to Taoism, but she rejected it as a religion unfit for placating an entire country. She was intrigued by its promise of immortality, however, and privately converted to it, advocating for Buddhism to keep Japan stable. After drinking an “immortality elixir” (mercury sulfide), however, she was forced to let go of her body and become a supernatural hermit like Seiga, notably taking on the form of a woman, making her a canonically trans character (lets-fucking-go).

After convincing a hermit from a rival clan (Mononobe no Futo) to sleep without decaying, Miko followed in suit, waiting for a time where a Taoist Japan would revive her in search of guidance. However, Buddhist monks were able to keep her mausoleum sealed, and the legends surrounding her were slowly brushed off- which led to her transportation into Gensokyo, where the folklore of old is a reality of everyday life.

When she awoke in Gensokyo, it was right after Buddhist monk Byakuren Hijiri opened her own temple, however, leading to a surge of divine spirits across the realm, setting up the events of Ten Desires.

What look like headphones on her are canonically earmuffs- Shoutoku was allegedly able to discern between ten questions asked at once, an ability carried by Miko (although with her enhanced abilities, she can also analyze each person and determine their inner desires (thus the title of the game))- although it means her hearing is highly sensitive and has to be muffled to prevent pain.


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  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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    2 months ago
    🤫

    meter wide (maybe 120?)

    aww that sounds real cozy comfy give your plushies a hug from me, sweetheart. cuddle

    and you get one too meow-hug

    sinä olet ihana

    eeeeeee niko-speen

    you are too cute, sweetie. ralsei-blush shy

    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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      2 months ago
      :eepy:

      Theyre getting big hugs from you darlin ^^

      and you get one too

      eeee lea-blush i love your hugs :3

      you are too cute, sweetie.

      I could say the same of you, lovely bridget-smug

      Im going to try and sleep now, i hope your day is wonderful and your time with your family is sweet and loving meow-hug

      Nn darlin <3

      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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        2 months ago
        nn ^^

        lovely

        lea-blush

        awh i hope so too, sweetheart. meow-hug

        sweet dreams, sweetie. ralsei-wave get a restful sleep kris-love

        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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          2 months ago
          heiiiii

          Good morning sweetness cat-trans

          I got rather restful night, and i think i had rather nice dreams, even if i dont remember them, because i woke up smiling niko-happy I wonder what I was dreaming about lea-blush

          In todays episode of lilypad, our daring heroine got a restful night of sleep, but will it be enough for her to face the grass-touching adventure of... Coffee with a friend!?? Lilypad is filmed in front of a live audience.

          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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            2 months ago
            Good morning!

            sweetness

            eeeeeeundyne-owo

            ooo the mind wonders. what did she dream about? lea-think we may never know. emilie-smug

            woo! coffee with a friend, truly a dangerous grass touching venture! how will our sweet heroine survive? stay tuned, more after the break! meow-popcorn

            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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              2 months ago
              spoiler

              what did she dream about?

              It definitely wasnt the cute girl shes been talking to ;p no no, certainly not lea-blush it probably was :3

              lilypad s2e5

              What dangers lurk out in the sunshine!? Hopefully we never find out....

              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                2 months ago
                :shocked-pikachu:

                you've been talking to a cute girl??? capitaldcolon

                heecrush shy

                lilypad s2e6

                What darkness lies in the heart of sunshine??? Our brave heroine just might find out.

                • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                  2 months ago
                  pika-shokk

                  Yeah i have, söpöliini owl-wink ok that one i had to look up

                  lilypad s2e6

                  It was really hot and smoggy/smokey weird in the sunshine, daily exposure should be limited ralsei-pout

                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                    2 months ago
                    :3

                    söpöliini

                    hyperflush heh

                    so can you impart any norweigen on me? been wilding out with swedish the whole day lea-tired

                    also how did the cafe date go? lea-happy

                    and finally do you want to hear about my day? lea-blush

                    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                      2 months ago
                      ^^

                      norwegian Norwegian is very similar to swedish in its grammar and structure ^^ Norwegian word of the post: søt (adjective, means cute/söpö) sinä olet söpö : du er søt

                      Nice thing with norwegian is that (regular) verbs inflect the same regardless of person, (e.g. jeg er, du er, han/hun/hen er, de er, dere er, vi er) so its very easy to learn verbs lea-finger-guns It does have grammatical gender for nouns tho, and adjectives have to agree with the nouns gender and definitiveness.

                      also how did the cafe date go?

                      It went great! There was fewer people than I expected, and it was quiet, and we just sat and talked for like 2 hours, had a good time catching up cause we hadnt talked in like 2 weeks ^^ plus hes leaving soon so its nice to get some time together

                      and finally do you want to hear about my day?

                      Yes please sweetie!! aubrey-happy I would love to hear about your day, and everything youve been up to in the wifi-enabled grasstouching sweden meow-bounce

                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                        2 months ago
                        c:

                        norwegian

                        fascinating! also it always makes me smile how so many of these words are in different dialects in finnish, like søt, there's a finnish word söötti, which is basically another way to say cute niko-happy

                        2 hours

                        hell yeah! lets-fucking-go when time flies while talking you know you have a good friend Care-Comrade

                        the day

                        so! went with dad to look at the sea, it was way too warm (i'll post the pics when i get on the pc again), talked with him a bit about my anxiety and how it fucking sucks, almost started crying and saying that i wish i could just be normal, but managed not to. he cares a lot thoughniko-happy

                        went back to the house and auntie gave me that recipe book to leaf through. spent some time on that and then she roped me into food prep and cooking. it was really nice lea-smile. afterwards i got white girl drunk on red wine while we ate. feeling really nice and loved today lea-blush

                        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                          2 months ago
                          :3

                          norwegian

                          Norway has so many dialects its unreal lol. There isnt even a standardized spoken language, theres just a bunch of dialects.

                          finnish

                          What does the two vowels next to each other mean in finnish? Is it like a longer or more stressed vowel?

                          your day

                          I would love to see the photos of the sea aubrey-happy

                          wish i could just be normal

                          This is so very relatable, lea-breakdown ive had similar convos with my folks. Im really glad he cares so much! niko-happy

                          recipe book

                          Ooh i love it! One of my favorite things is finding old recipes or old cookbooks, they are always so fun ^^

                          roped me into food prep and cooking.

                          What did you all make? lea-happy

                          white girl drunk

                          anya-heh i always do this where I have a couple glasses of wine, feel nothing, and then all of a sudden im drunk lea-finger-guns

                          feeling really nice and loved today

                          Im so happyyyyy aubrey-happy it sounds like you have a really kind and supportive family, even if they dont quite "get it" sometimes. And, what can I say, lovely people like yourself are often well loved kris-love

                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                            2 months ago
                            ^^

                            dialects

                            oh god it's even worse than finland emilie-come-on

                            söötti

                            yeah it's longer, rule of thumb there are no silent letters in finnish, the words are said literally just like how they're written, following finnish pronounciations obviously, and that is hard for most people lea-wasnt-me

                            food

                            we roasted some vegetables in the oven and I made another pizza for myself, because auntie's experience with veganism is that cheese, fish and eggs are fine. smdh. anyway they grilled some meat and we air fried some sliced potatoes, topped with vegan aioli pingu-horny it was excellent.

                            drunk

                            i bet you're a really cute drunk shy

                            really kind and supportive family

                            yeah lea-happy really lucked out in the trans bingo tbh, parents took a real leftward turn when i came out and mom's side of the family have seemingly been soc dems at worst so it's pretty great, honestly lea-blush

                            lovely people like yourself are often well loved

                            oh shtaph aubrey-embarassed

                            pls dont actually i love it undyne-owo

                            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                              2 months ago
                              ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

                              dialects Its... Pretty amazing tbh. Theres a piece on NRK from a while back about two people with very thick dialects from different parts of the country talking to each other, and they cant understand each other. I love it, but it can be difficult. It can also be fun with sentences that are only tiny monosyllabic words (e.g. " d e d d e å d e d d va" or like "æ e i a æ å æ")

                              finnish

                              Ok that does sound rough. I bet I could do the pronounciation but learning how to break up words into syllables can be real difficult.

                              drunk

                              Idk, i either get way more anxious or way less anxious. But if its just me and one other person i tend to get more cuddly shy

                              family

                              Its so nice to hear people taking left turns aubrey-happy There have definitely been some people in my family where I was worried id have to get all aubrey-bat with them. But at worst theyre well meaning libs (aside from the hardcore reactionaries and fash we no longer talk to).

                              oh shtaph

                              anya-heh make me, söpöliini

                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                2 months ago
                                ~happy lesbian noises~

                                "æ e i a æ å æ")

                                wtf this is on some welsh shit

                                finnish

                                there's a lot of fun things you're allowed to do with the words and most will understand the meaning like mussukka is like a milder version of cutie, but not really cutie-pie... it doesnt really translate. but for example i could say: "olet suloinen sussukka." and it's understood that i' ve tried to make you blush by calling you a "cute little cutie-pie" lea-finger-guns

                                drunk

                                cuddles are great! i get these very straight yearnings when i'm drunk enough shy

                                family

                                well my brother is a rightoid so it all balances out i guess niko-concern

                                make me

                                you're tempting my switchiness to turn towards the top part via this bratty behaviour, sweetness soviet-pout

                                • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
                                  ·
                                  2 months ago
                                  mildly bratty sub sound

                                  My day just took a fun turn! One of my friends invited me to come make cookies with her and grab some dinner together! Im gonna touch so much grass today! but this means im leaving soon and not giving undivided attention to söpöliini in my phone :(

                                  this is on some welsh shit

                                  sicko-lea

                                  But I mean, norwegians got nothing on welsh, that language is confusing!

                                  olet suloinen sussukka

                                  hyperflush you may have succeeded :3

                                  yearnings

                                  Those yearnings, oh those yearnings :anti-volcel-daydream:

                                  brother is a rightoid

                                  badeline-concern Theres always at least one

                                  switchiness to turn towards the top

                                  I wonder if youre all bluff ;p or do i need to knock a wine glass off the table? ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ nia-smug

                                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
                                    ·
                                    2 months ago
                                    more grass touching!

                                    it's actually pretty good since im getting eepy, and would love nothing* more than that someone would keep company to this cute little kitten cat-trans

                                    *ok there's a few things crush

                                    yearnings

                                    wistful sigh yeah lea-blush

                                    bluff

                                    my bluffing game is pretty solid lea-think

                                    i also have some heavy duty necklaces i would love to test, for the rest, i learn pretty fast by doing, sweetheartlea-smug

                                    have a wonderful day, sweetness ralsei-wave i'll chat with you more in the morning

                                    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                      2 months ago
                                      grass touching (mostly) successful

                                      aww you were all cute and eepy, and I bet when you wake youll be all cute and groggy cuddle

                                      this cute little kitten

                                      ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ kitten reporting for company ^^

                                      love nothing* more [...] *ok theres a few things

                                      Yeah? You wanna tell me about them? Id love to hear bridget-smug

                                      My time out was mostly good! We made cookies, had a good time talking, played some cards, and just hung out for a good while. My other friend who is also her roommate was there and it was also nice to talk to her.

                                      (Edit: also i just want to make clear, if you get uncomfortable or are not wanting to continue this, please say so and we can drop it; i dont want to make you uncomfortable)

                                      more heavy flirt

                                      my bluffing game is pretty solid

                                      Oh yea? So what would you do if i knocked a glass off the table? 😈

                                      i also have some heavy duty necklaces i would love to test, for the rest, i learn pretty fast by doing, sweetheart

                                      Ooo what kind of necklaces do you have? And how would you test them? maya-devious id love to see your fast learning ;p

                                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
                                        ·
                                        2 months ago
                                        yay! ^^

                                        cute and groggy reporting for duty niko-yawn

                                        •ﻌ•

                                        meow-petted

                                        You wanna tell me about them?

                                        alright uhh counting fingers existing in the same timezone. existing in the same country. existing in the same city. existing in the same hou... uhh neighbourhood. .. . shy yeah

                                        cookies

                                        hell yeah, what kind? lea-happy

                                        I'm glad you have friends, sweetness. One of the best feelings when you can just chill with the gals lea-w

                                        heavy you say?

                                        i have a remarkably well trained disdainful look that I could plaster on, just for you sweetie. Also I seem to remember we've discussed my kinks before; biting, blood, pain and knives crush I do have some expertise with knives, but I also have some skill with my teeth lea-finger-guns

                                        the necklace is a hoop in the end of a long chain, looks kinda goth/punk, but you can tighten it very nicely around someone's neck one handed sicko-lea

                                        dont know much about ropes, sweetheart, but to live is to learn as they say lea-blush

                                        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                          2 months ago
                                          eeeeeeeeppppyyyy

                                          Im getting very eeepy, and soon i must sleepy. Its getting hard to keep my eyes open... I want to stay here in this thread with you, but i might have to just dream about this instead. sleepi

                                        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                          2 months ago
                                          ^eeeeeeee^

                                          Cute groggy söpöliini meow-melt

                                          cookies

                                          Oatmeal butterscotch with lemon glaze ^^ I bet you would know how to replace the butter (then theyd be vegan)

                                          counting fingers

                                          Maybe next time im in europe ill have to give you a call lea-blush help i have no money and söpöliini is in finland

                                          I'm glad you have friends, sweetness. One of the best feelings when you can just chill with the gals

                                          Me too, its really nice ^^ i just wish i was less anxious and could fully enjoy myself

                                          👉👈

                                          teeth

                                          Oh bite me no literally bite me hyperflush tear into me, leave me covered in marks. Make me giggle and wimper and scream

                                          pain

                                          I love floggers and whips and little implements :hyperhyperflush: The sting of whips¹ is just, idk, its magical.

                                          Ive never had someone draw my blood, the thought terrifies me... But is also a little exciting...

                                          the necklace

                                          smiling at the thought you want to keep me tightly bound, knowing my place, with your necklace there holding me still?

                                          ropes

                                          To live, to learn, bind me, burn
                                          To tie, to wrap, my body, slap
                                          To strike, to hit, the flesh, bright lit
                                          To see, to feel, to touch, be real

                                          ¹ info

                                          Whips are just so cool! Ive been trying to learn how to make them. I wove myself a leash for my collar a while back to familiarize myself with weaving. I really want to get a range of impact toys. Its just so fun! Well, it depends i guess. Sometimes I can handle only 15 minutes, other times I can go for over an hour, but it does eventually stop being fun when im past my limits.

                                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
                                            ·
                                            2 months ago
                                            ^^ part 2

                                            pain

                                            eh i think we can work up to the knife, sweetheart. need to learn the proper etiquette of whip use first anyhow sicko-lea

                                            the necklace

                                            outdoor catgirls need to be leashed at all times, don't you know. wouldnt want anyone to abscond with you. lea-blush

                                            ropes

                                            crush the combination of you being a sweet poet and the subject matter is giving me a pleasant whiplash, sweetness.

                                            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                              2 months ago
                                              o hai :3

                                              whip etiquette

                                              crush omg yes

                                              Theres so much fun with whips and floggers and impact implements bridget-smug i have some old leather jackets i bought at thrift stores that I want to turn into collars and cuffs, but one is so incredibly massive that it might have enough material to make a little signal whip :3

                                              leashed

                                              hyperflush my leash is so short tho! Its only about a meter and a half! Need to get a longer one for outdoor excursions :3 Will you help me get down when I get stuck in a tree? shy

                                              pleasant whiplash

                                              Well, ill just have to keep on writing then lea-smug

                                              But darlin, arent i the one whose supposed to be getting lashes ;p

                                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                2 months ago
                                                witchy switches wore wrist watches

                                                signal whip

                                                ooooh, i did see some paddles on etsy but this would basically function as one, but being a whip at the same time. niko-wonderous

                                                Will you help me get down when I get stuck in a tree?

                                                of course, sweetness. No one is allowed to hurt my precious kitty cat, not even mother nature. meow-hug

                                                Well, ill just have to keep on writing then

                                                please do lea-blush

                                                But darlin, arent i the one whose supposed to be getting lashes ;p

                                                you forget that I'm just a humble switch bleh not a full top emilie-smug

                                                • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                                  2 months ago
                                                  what a lovely switchy witch

                                                  signal whip as paddle

                                                  Kind of? If you used the handle it could function as a thuddy thumper, but idk if that would damage the whip? (I might be misunderstanding you). In general with whips youre aiming to lightly graze your target; the difference of a few centimeters can be the difference between a whip mark and fully split skin, depending on how hard your strikes are. Watching people play with singletails is almost like watching someone dance, they move back and forth on their feet and sort of swing the whip from side to side. Tbh its kinda mesmerizing ^^

                                                  No one is allowed to hurt my precious kitty cat

                                                  meow-melt curling up on your lap, all safe and cozzzzyyyyyy

                                                  you forget that I'm just a humble switch not a full top

                                                  True, i forget myself. Maybe we could mark each other maya-devious shy

                                                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                    2 months ago
                                                    switchy witch witching switchily

                                                    I might be misunderstanding you

                                                    no no, probably not. my understanding of whips is woefully inadequate, love to see your nerding about them though, sweetie. makes me want to learn more lea-blush

                                                    Maybe we could mark each other

                                                    powercry-1 promise?

                                                    shy

                                                    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                                      2 months ago
                                                      ....am I a sub? Or a sub leaning switch.....?

                                                      makes me want to learn more

                                                      You want me to tell you about them? lea-happy

                                                      promise?

                                                      Ok ive not wanted to mark someone before but youve got me feeling things that are markedly unsubby... I could bring out the implements and we could choose, i which to have you use upon me, you which to have me use upon you :3 Ive never Dommed before though, its not something i quite understand, and i may need some guidance...

                                                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                        2 months ago
                                                        ....more like a sub learning to switch

                                                        lea-finger-guns

                                                        You want me to tell you about them?

                                                        oooh yes please! lea-happy

                                                        never Dommed before

                                                        I'm sure we can mold a service top out of you, sweetness lea-smug I have two things that I'm not into. Degradation, just....ugh. I mean sure if that's what people want, but I'd like to forcefully make people feel better about themselves, really. The second is being tied down, I think I have some childhood trauma related to toy handcuffs that were made out of fucken STEEL lea-breakdown but like being held down is very hot lea-blush

                                                        sadly it's pretty late here and I do need to go to work tomorrow lea-sad which reminds me, we should probably move over to PMs, trying to find a nice thread to linger seems unlikely to happen twice, even though I would love to work on the comment numbers on the megathread. anya-heh

                                                        You have a wonderful rest of the day, sweetheart. cat-trans

                                                        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                                          2 months ago
                                                          ive been told im a fast learner :3

                                                          whips

                                                          I think ill do a little write up on whips in another comment ^^

                                                          mold a service top

                                                          Subby lilypad reporting for molding!

                                                          degredation

                                                          Yeah, I like a handful of degrading talk but its so specific and has such potential to send me spiraling if misapplied that I dony really ask for any degredation when with someone.

                                                          steel handcuffs

                                                          Im sorry you were put through that meow-hug idek why they would give such things to children

                                                          being held down

                                                          Im not very strong shy but i can try to hold you down!

                                                          move over to PMs

                                                          That sounds fine to me!

                                                          You have a wonderful rest of the day, sweetheart.

                                                          aubrey-happy I will! But only if you promise youll have a lovely night of sleep, my lovely söpöliini, you deserve to be well rested for work tomorrow <3

                                                          Now go get a lovely long rest niko-sleep and dream lovely wonderous dreams <3

                                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                            2 months ago
                                            ^^

                                            söpöliini

                                            hee hyperflush

                                            Oatmeal butterscotch with lemon glaze

                                            oh me oh my pingu-horny replacing butter is the easiest, i might need the recipe, sweetness lea-think

                                            europe

                                            ugh i knooooow, this sucks lea-ugh maybe one day, sweetie aubrey-sad

                                            wish i was less anxious

                                            mood fr fr kitty-birthday-sad

                                            going to have to go offline again (9h in the car kill me pls). sorry, sweetheart lea-sad

                                            :3

                                            biting was the plan, sweetness. emilie-smug

                                            would love to delve deeper in this, but running out time. Will revisit this on the pc later today, sweetheart. Forgive me pls aubrey-sad

                                            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                              2 months ago
                                              :3

                                              one day, sweetie

                                              crush

                                              9h in the car

                                              I hope your car ride wasnt too terrible meow-hug

                                              ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

                                              biting was the plan, sweetness

                                              biblically-accurate-kitty i like this plan, tell me more ;p

                                              Forgive me pls

                                              Always cat-trans

                                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                2 months ago
                                                hewwo uwu

                                                I hope your car ride wasnt too terrible

                                                surprisingly painless this time around, read some gay slop and fell asleep twice, i think? not bad. mentally really tired and going to take a long shower soon but i have been neglecting the cute girl in my pc so i have to rectify this lea-happy

                                                currently wearing some cat ears and some slight smoky eye going on because my makeup has run a bit meow-melt will probably post some pics into the main megathread tomorrow after i get out of work niko-yawn

                                                how did you say it? heavy flirting, yeah that's good

                                                so let me lay out the scene: You naked in my bed, hands tied. Blindfold? Hm maybe. I'm sitting on your stomach squeezing your midsection with my thighs (which are quite thicc as you recall). I'll lick my way up your sternum to your left ear and nibble it a bit, then I'll move lower to the spot where your neck and shoulder connect and bite down hard, sucking it a bit and letting go with a muted pop sound. I'll slowly nuzzle my nose on underneath your chin and do a little nibble right at the center of your throat. Then I'll move to the right side and give a little kiss to the neck there. I'll lower myself on your chest and cross my arms over it, whispering lightly "Beg for it."

                                                Will you beg for it, sweetness?

                                                • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                                  2 months ago
                                                  heia ^^

                                                  have been neglecting the cute girl in my pc so i have to rectify this

                                                  meow-melt

                                                  currently wearing some cat ears and some slight smoky eye going on because my makeup has run a bit

                                                  Omg cute! Smokey eyes are kind of amazing, but I dont do them very well on myself.

                                                  first the idk procedural anxiety sating bit sorry i know its not fun im just an anxious person

                                                  I just want to be sure of things, im not asking you to dox yourself, but i do want to know if youre a minor before this gets heavier. From the way youve talked, Im fairly certain you arent, but i had a moment of anxiety here and felt the need to ask, cause i know I did stuff like this when I was a young teen. For what its worth, im in the 25-35 age range meow-hug

                                                  Also just as an aside, are there things youd like me to avoid mentioning in the heavier bits here? On my end, i have some difficulties/dysphoria with my genitals, and dont like to think about or use them in the standard cishet way.

                                                  heavier :3

                                                  Laying here, sightless, held in place by your thighs. I stare up into the dark of the blindfold. Unable to move, feeling the wetness of your tongue as it slinkily parades its way up to my ear. A nibbling follows, and is punctuated with the sharp pain of a powerful bite and a yelp escaping my lips. A small muted pop reverberates through the room as you move your attention elsewhere. I feel you nuzzling up against my throat, and the little nibbles that follow send shivers through me. A kiss on the right side of my neck follows, and i feel you settle on my chest. "Beg for it" i hear you say. "please, I want-", the words are almost pulled out of me "I need you, more, please". A moment passes before the words escape my mouth: "please, I need it"

                                                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                    2 months ago
                                                    anxiety stuff

                                                    let's say that I'm in the 30-35 demographic. gloriously ruined by capitalism and definitely don't have my shit in order lea-breakdown yeah, let's just veer away from the genitals, need to get a surgery first lea-finger-guns . Never done this stuff before though, oooo let's see if my gay slop reading has been worth anything....eh besides the obvious. I definitely have a perfectionist streak, I'm being reminded basil-anxious

                                                    heavier

                                                    "Good girl." I murmur and start to slowly move forwards again, slowly nuzzling my way up to the cruelly neglected right side of the neck. Slowly painfully slowly tracing my teeth across the neck and bite down, pulling the skin a bit as I move and leaving a trail of bites all the way to the left side, where I stop again. "What do you need?" I ask while slowly moving my right hand along the line of marks already blossoming along the neck. "And do you think you deserve it?"

                                                    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                                      2 months ago
                                                      anxiety stuff

                                                      meow-bounce meow-hug

                                                      heavier

                                                      good girl A shudder runs through my body a smile across my lips at the words. I feel the movement towards my neck, ever so slowly. A flash as I feel your teeth graze my flesh, and then more, they sink into me, not so deep as to break skin, but deep enough that I truly feel them. Deep enough to communicate intimate knowledge; I know my place beneath your teeth, wrapped in your thighs, Yours. The bites come slowly, so slowly. Moving across my neck. I feel my skin blooming at each one, until you come to stop at my left side. "What do you need?" the words slide from your lips into my mind as i feel you trace your fingers over your handiwork "And do you think you deserve it?". "I- you- I dont- I- you- need-" I stammer, unable to even begin forming a cogent answer to the questions. What do I need? The thought lingers for a moment before I reply: "You, your marks, your touch. I need to please and pleasure, and be pleasured. I need to belong and be yours. And I know I probably dont deserve it. Please, help me, help me deserve it."

                                                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                        2 months ago
                                                        Rated H for Heavier

                                                        I hum and move my lips closer, sucking on the skin slightly and rising up. I move my hand up the right side of your neck into your scalp and grasp the hair in a tight grip. "Oh, sweetheart, no one is allowed to talk down to you, not even you." I whisper against your chin and tug your hair hard enough to expose more of that wonderfully soft skin and start biting and sucking on it, moving very slightly each time. Eventually releasing your hair and starting to scratch down your scalp soothingly, while moving my mouth to your ear and biting on the lobe and pulling it slightly with my teeth. "Are you sure you don't think you deserve this?" I whisper into your ear as I release the lobe, and softly move my hand from your hair over to your throat. Doing a slight squeeze with my thighs, and my hand at the same time. "Tell me you deserve this, sweetness."

                                                        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                                          2 months ago
                                                          blood type H+ cause its positively heavy

                                                          With your hand tightly gripping my hair, I hear your voice in my ear.

                                                          "Oh, sweetheart, no one is allowed to talk down to you, not even you."

                                                          The words stir something in me, a feeling for which I have no name. Welling up inside me it spills over into devotion and emotional release, juxtaposed by the control you have over my head, the comfortable discomfort of the biting and sucking upon my skin, the pleasurable pain of it all. As your hand releases and scratches down my scalp in a soothing calming motion my head tilts back upright to meet your lips upon my ear, nibbling and grazing upon it, before whispering:

                                                          "Are you sure you don't think you deserve this?"

                                                          Words have abandoned my thoughts, and only color remains. Flashes of green and red compose the grammar, golden streaks form words, and blue undertones lay out the intonation. White hot points punctuate this sentence of color. I realize your hand is at my throat; I had been so distracted I hadnt noticed its soft movement thereto.

                                                          "Tell me you deserve this, sweetness" The words are accompanied by a coordinated squeeze of your thighs round my torso and your hand on my throat, and crystallize my thought into words:

                                                          "I deserve this, I want this, I need this; I want you"

                                                          As the words vacate my lungs I feel your grip tighten slightly, not enough to choke or strangle, but enough that I know youre there, and know youve heard me.

                                            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                              2 months ago

                                              Forgiveness forever, im eeeeepy and going to sleep now. I hope your car drive is less rough than the drive out there! Nn lovely meow-hug

                                            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                              2 months ago
                                              recipe

                                              It was 2 sticks butter, 1¼ cups flour, ¾ cup white sugar, ¾ cup packed brown sugar, 2 eggs, some baking soda, zest of 1 lemon, cinnamon, vanilla, and salt. Also 3 cups oats and as much butterscotch as youd like (we used a whole bag)

                                              Mix the dry ingredients (sans sugar) all together. Mix the softened butter with the sugar, then beat in the eggs, lemon zest, and vanilla. Slowly mix in the dry ingredients. Then stir in the oats and butterscotch.

                                              Bake at 375°F for like 10 minutes i think? Adjust baking times as needed.

                                              Finally, juice a lemon and mix as much powdered sugar into the lemon juice as needed to make a glaze, and drizzle it over the cookies ^^

                                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                2 months ago
                                                spoiler

                                                thank you, sweetness. can never have too many recipes meow-petted feels good to be back on the keyboard lea-finger-guns

                                                • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                                  2 months ago
                                                  spoiler

                                                  Ofc! ^^ if you can make it vegan id love to know how meow-bounce

                                                  feels good to be back on the keyboard

                                                  Never stop posting posting

                                                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                    2 months ago
                                                    the posting will never stop

                                                    vegan

                                                    everything can be made vegan, i just gotta workshop it a bit. I'll keep you posted, sweetie. lea-blush

                                                    They will hate to pry this board from my cold dead hands 07

                                                    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                                      2 months ago
                                                      yayyy

                                                      I'll keep you posted, sweetie.

                                                      Yayy \^^/

                                                      I need more vegan and vegetarian recipes! I had a pretty good vegetarian enchilada recipe, but i lost it the last time i moved ralsei-pout.

                                                      cw carnist-ism

                                                      Ive been trying to move in a less meat-oriented direction with my food. Its been somewhat (?) successful, i only really eat meat if im eating out with people or someone is throwing away something (im not gonna let food go to waste, and especially meat, like, something died for this, im not gonna let it end up in the trash unless its literally rotting/unsafe for consumption).

                                                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                                        2 months ago
                                                        ^^

                                                        butterscotch might be hard to veganise, i mean i found a recipe already, but i could just use something that requires less effort, but would be about the same, have to look at this more tomorrow when I'm less tired edit: ah nevermind, found a good source from which to shop for a vegan variant ^^

                                                        I have so many vegan recipes bookmarked! here's one for enchiladas

                                                        I mean, that's fair. The whole idea is that you refrain from using animal products within your own means, if you're going to starve it's better to eat the meat. Ideals are hard to munch on, when your belly starts to high five your spine lea-why Atleast you're doing things, sweetie. That's more than like 95% of people in the west fucking seem to care aubrey-angry

                                                        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                                          2 months ago
                                                          omg tysm!!!

                                                          I have so many vegan recipes bookmarked! here's one for enchiladas

                                                          This is wonderful tysm!! I really need to start making a recipe book for myself... I should get one of those moleskins and write everything down all pretty like ^^

                                                          belly starts to high five your spine

                                                          Ugh thats the perfect description for that feeling kitty-birthday-sad

                                                          Atleast you're doing things, sweetie

                                                          cuddle I try! I just dont have the brainspace to manage it while also managing the rest of my life aubrey-cry-1