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Toyosatomimi no Miko is a character in the Touhou Project series introduced in its 13th installment, Ten Desires.

Miko was once Prince Shoutoku, a Japanese leader in the 600s known for promoting Buddhism and streamlining the Japanese government. In the Touhou lore, she was visited by Taoist hermit Seiga Kaku, who had heard about Miko’s longing for immortality. Seiga introduced her to Taoism, but she rejected it as a religion unfit for placating an entire country. She was intrigued by its promise of immortality, however, and privately converted to it, advocating for Buddhism to keep Japan stable. After drinking an “immortality elixir” (mercury sulfide), however, she was forced to let go of her body and become a supernatural hermit like Seiga, notably taking on the form of a woman, making her a canonically trans character (lets-fucking-go).

After convincing a hermit from a rival clan (Mononobe no Futo) to sleep without decaying, Miko followed in suit, waiting for a time where a Taoist Japan would revive her in search of guidance. However, Buddhist monks were able to keep her mausoleum sealed, and the legends surrounding her were slowly brushed off- which led to her transportation into Gensokyo, where the folklore of old is a reality of everyday life.

When she awoke in Gensokyo, it was right after Buddhist monk Byakuren Hijiri opened her own temple, however, leading to a surge of divine spirits across the realm, setting up the events of Ten Desires.

What look like headphones on her are canonically earmuffs- Shoutoku was allegedly able to discern between ten questions asked at once, an ability carried by Miko (although with her enhanced abilities, she can also analyze each person and determine their inner desires (thus the title of the game))- although it means her hearing is highly sensitive and has to be muffled to prevent pain.


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  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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    2 months ago
    ^^

    dialects

    oh god it's even worse than finland emilie-come-on

    söötti

    yeah it's longer, rule of thumb there are no silent letters in finnish, the words are said literally just like how they're written, following finnish pronounciations obviously, and that is hard for most people lea-wasnt-me

    food

    we roasted some vegetables in the oven and I made another pizza for myself, because auntie's experience with veganism is that cheese, fish and eggs are fine. smdh. anyway they grilled some meat and we air fried some sliced potatoes, topped with vegan aioli pingu-horny it was excellent.

    drunk

    i bet you're a really cute drunk shy

    really kind and supportive family

    yeah lea-happy really lucked out in the trans bingo tbh, parents took a real leftward turn when i came out and mom's side of the family have seemingly been soc dems at worst so it's pretty great, honestly lea-blush

    lovely people like yourself are often well loved

    oh shtaph aubrey-embarassed

    pls dont actually i love it undyne-owo

    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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      2 months ago
      ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

      dialects Its... Pretty amazing tbh. Theres a piece on NRK from a while back about two people with very thick dialects from different parts of the country talking to each other, and they cant understand each other. I love it, but it can be difficult. It can also be fun with sentences that are only tiny monosyllabic words (e.g. " d e d d e å d e d d va" or like "æ e i a æ å æ")

      finnish

      Ok that does sound rough. I bet I could do the pronounciation but learning how to break up words into syllables can be real difficult.

      drunk

      Idk, i either get way more anxious or way less anxious. But if its just me and one other person i tend to get more cuddly shy

      family

      Its so nice to hear people taking left turns aubrey-happy There have definitely been some people in my family where I was worried id have to get all aubrey-bat with them. But at worst theyre well meaning libs (aside from the hardcore reactionaries and fash we no longer talk to).

      oh shtaph

      anya-heh make me, söpöliini

      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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        2 months ago
        ~happy lesbian noises~

        "æ e i a æ å æ")

        wtf this is on some welsh shit

        finnish

        there's a lot of fun things you're allowed to do with the words and most will understand the meaning like mussukka is like a milder version of cutie, but not really cutie-pie... it doesnt really translate. but for example i could say: "olet suloinen sussukka." and it's understood that i' ve tried to make you blush by calling you a "cute little cutie-pie" lea-finger-guns

        drunk

        cuddles are great! i get these very straight yearnings when i'm drunk enough shy

        family

        well my brother is a rightoid so it all balances out i guess niko-concern

        make me

        you're tempting my switchiness to turn towards the top part via this bratty behaviour, sweetness soviet-pout

        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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          2 months ago
          mildly bratty sub sound

          My day just took a fun turn! One of my friends invited me to come make cookies with her and grab some dinner together! Im gonna touch so much grass today! but this means im leaving soon and not giving undivided attention to söpöliini in my phone :(

          this is on some welsh shit

          sicko-lea

          But I mean, norwegians got nothing on welsh, that language is confusing!

          olet suloinen sussukka

          hyperflush you may have succeeded :3

          yearnings

          Those yearnings, oh those yearnings :anti-volcel-daydream:

          brother is a rightoid

          badeline-concern Theres always at least one

          switchiness to turn towards the top

          I wonder if youre all bluff ;p or do i need to knock a wine glass off the table? ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ nia-smug

          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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            2 months ago
            more grass touching!

            it's actually pretty good since im getting eepy, and would love nothing* more than that someone would keep company to this cute little kitten cat-trans

            *ok there's a few things crush

            yearnings

            wistful sigh yeah lea-blush

            bluff

            my bluffing game is pretty solid lea-think

            i also have some heavy duty necklaces i would love to test, for the rest, i learn pretty fast by doing, sweetheartlea-smug

            have a wonderful day, sweetness ralsei-wave i'll chat with you more in the morning

            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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              2 months ago
              grass touching (mostly) successful

              aww you were all cute and eepy, and I bet when you wake youll be all cute and groggy cuddle

              this cute little kitten

              ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ kitten reporting for company ^^

              love nothing* more [...] *ok theres a few things

              Yeah? You wanna tell me about them? Id love to hear bridget-smug

              My time out was mostly good! We made cookies, had a good time talking, played some cards, and just hung out for a good while. My other friend who is also her roommate was there and it was also nice to talk to her.

              (Edit: also i just want to make clear, if you get uncomfortable or are not wanting to continue this, please say so and we can drop it; i dont want to make you uncomfortable)

              more heavy flirt

              my bluffing game is pretty solid

              Oh yea? So what would you do if i knocked a glass off the table? 😈

              i also have some heavy duty necklaces i would love to test, for the rest, i learn pretty fast by doing, sweetheart

              Ooo what kind of necklaces do you have? And how would you test them? maya-devious id love to see your fast learning ;p

              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                2 months ago
                yay! ^^

                cute and groggy reporting for duty niko-yawn

                •ﻌ•

                meow-petted

                You wanna tell me about them?

                alright uhh counting fingers existing in the same timezone. existing in the same country. existing in the same city. existing in the same hou... uhh neighbourhood. .. . shy yeah

                cookies

                hell yeah, what kind? lea-happy

                I'm glad you have friends, sweetness. One of the best feelings when you can just chill with the gals lea-w

                heavy you say?

                i have a remarkably well trained disdainful look that I could plaster on, just for you sweetie. Also I seem to remember we've discussed my kinks before; biting, blood, pain and knives crush I do have some expertise with knives, but I also have some skill with my teeth lea-finger-guns

                the necklace is a hoop in the end of a long chain, looks kinda goth/punk, but you can tighten it very nicely around someone's neck one handed sicko-lea

                dont know much about ropes, sweetheart, but to live is to learn as they say lea-blush

                • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                  2 months ago
                  eeeeeeeeppppyyyy

                  Im getting very eeepy, and soon i must sleepy. Its getting hard to keep my eyes open... I want to stay here in this thread with you, but i might have to just dream about this instead. sleepi

                • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                  2 months ago
                  ^eeeeeeee^

                  Cute groggy söpöliini meow-melt

                  cookies

                  Oatmeal butterscotch with lemon glaze ^^ I bet you would know how to replace the butter (then theyd be vegan)

                  counting fingers

                  Maybe next time im in europe ill have to give you a call lea-blush help i have no money and söpöliini is in finland

                  I'm glad you have friends, sweetness. One of the best feelings when you can just chill with the gals

                  Me too, its really nice ^^ i just wish i was less anxious and could fully enjoy myself

                  👉👈

                  teeth

                  Oh bite me no literally bite me hyperflush tear into me, leave me covered in marks. Make me giggle and wimper and scream

                  pain

                  I love floggers and whips and little implements :hyperhyperflush: The sting of whips¹ is just, idk, its magical.

                  Ive never had someone draw my blood, the thought terrifies me... But is also a little exciting...

                  the necklace

                  smiling at the thought you want to keep me tightly bound, knowing my place, with your necklace there holding me still?

                  ropes

                  To live, to learn, bind me, burn
                  To tie, to wrap, my body, slap
                  To strike, to hit, the flesh, bright lit
                  To see, to feel, to touch, be real

                  ¹ info

                  Whips are just so cool! Ive been trying to learn how to make them. I wove myself a leash for my collar a while back to familiarize myself with weaving. I really want to get a range of impact toys. Its just so fun! Well, it depends i guess. Sometimes I can handle only 15 minutes, other times I can go for over an hour, but it does eventually stop being fun when im past my limits.

                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
                    ·
                    2 months ago
                    ^^ part 2

                    pain

                    eh i think we can work up to the knife, sweetheart. need to learn the proper etiquette of whip use first anyhow sicko-lea

                    the necklace

                    outdoor catgirls need to be leashed at all times, don't you know. wouldnt want anyone to abscond with you. lea-blush

                    ropes

                    crush the combination of you being a sweet poet and the subject matter is giving me a pleasant whiplash, sweetness.

                    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                      2 months ago
                      o hai :3

                      whip etiquette

                      crush omg yes

                      Theres so much fun with whips and floggers and impact implements bridget-smug i have some old leather jackets i bought at thrift stores that I want to turn into collars and cuffs, but one is so incredibly massive that it might have enough material to make a little signal whip :3

                      leashed

                      hyperflush my leash is so short tho! Its only about a meter and a half! Need to get a longer one for outdoor excursions :3 Will you help me get down when I get stuck in a tree? shy

                      pleasant whiplash

                      Well, ill just have to keep on writing then lea-smug

                      But darlin, arent i the one whose supposed to be getting lashes ;p

                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                        2 months ago
                        witchy switches wore wrist watches

                        signal whip

                        ooooh, i did see some paddles on etsy but this would basically function as one, but being a whip at the same time. niko-wonderous

                        Will you help me get down when I get stuck in a tree?

                        of course, sweetness. No one is allowed to hurt my precious kitty cat, not even mother nature. meow-hug

                        Well, ill just have to keep on writing then

                        please do lea-blush

                        But darlin, arent i the one whose supposed to be getting lashes ;p

                        you forget that I'm just a humble switch bleh not a full top emilie-smug

                        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
                          ·
                          2 months ago
                          what a lovely switchy witch

                          signal whip as paddle

                          Kind of? If you used the handle it could function as a thuddy thumper, but idk if that would damage the whip? (I might be misunderstanding you). In general with whips youre aiming to lightly graze your target; the difference of a few centimeters can be the difference between a whip mark and fully split skin, depending on how hard your strikes are. Watching people play with singletails is almost like watching someone dance, they move back and forth on their feet and sort of swing the whip from side to side. Tbh its kinda mesmerizing ^^

                          No one is allowed to hurt my precious kitty cat

                          meow-melt curling up on your lap, all safe and cozzzzyyyyyy

                          you forget that I'm just a humble switch not a full top

                          True, i forget myself. Maybe we could mark each other maya-devious shy

                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
                            ·
                            2 months ago
                            switchy witch witching switchily

                            I might be misunderstanding you

                            no no, probably not. my understanding of whips is woefully inadequate, love to see your nerding about them though, sweetie. makes me want to learn more lea-blush

                            Maybe we could mark each other

                            powercry-1 promise?

                            shy

                            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
                              ·
                              2 months ago
                              ....am I a sub? Or a sub leaning switch.....?

                              makes me want to learn more

                              You want me to tell you about them? lea-happy

                              promise?

                              Ok ive not wanted to mark someone before but youve got me feeling things that are markedly unsubby... I could bring out the implements and we could choose, i which to have you use upon me, you which to have me use upon you :3 Ive never Dommed before though, its not something i quite understand, and i may need some guidance...

                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
                                ·
                                2 months ago
                                ....more like a sub learning to switch

                                lea-finger-guns

                                You want me to tell you about them?

                                oooh yes please! lea-happy

                                never Dommed before

                                I'm sure we can mold a service top out of you, sweetness lea-smug I have two things that I'm not into. Degradation, just....ugh. I mean sure if that's what people want, but I'd like to forcefully make people feel better about themselves, really. The second is being tied down, I think I have some childhood trauma related to toy handcuffs that were made out of fucken STEEL lea-breakdown but like being held down is very hot lea-blush

                                sadly it's pretty late here and I do need to go to work tomorrow lea-sad which reminds me, we should probably move over to PMs, trying to find a nice thread to linger seems unlikely to happen twice, even though I would love to work on the comment numbers on the megathread. anya-heh

                                You have a wonderful rest of the day, sweetheart. cat-trans

                                • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
                                  ·
                                  2 months ago
                                  ive been told im a fast learner :3

                                  whips

                                  I think ill do a little write up on whips in another comment ^^

                                  mold a service top

                                  Subby lilypad reporting for molding!

                                  degredation

                                  Yeah, I like a handful of degrading talk but its so specific and has such potential to send me spiraling if misapplied that I dony really ask for any degredation when with someone.

                                  steel handcuffs

                                  Im sorry you were put through that meow-hug idek why they would give such things to children

                                  being held down

                                  Im not very strong shy but i can try to hold you down!

                                  move over to PMs

                                  That sounds fine to me!

                                  You have a wonderful rest of the day, sweetheart.

                                  aubrey-happy I will! But only if you promise youll have a lovely night of sleep, my lovely söpöliini, you deserve to be well rested for work tomorrow <3

                                  Now go get a lovely long rest niko-sleep and dream lovely wonderous dreams <3

                  • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
                    ·
                    2 months ago
                    ^^

                    söpöliini

                    hee hyperflush

                    Oatmeal butterscotch with lemon glaze

                    oh me oh my pingu-horny replacing butter is the easiest, i might need the recipe, sweetness lea-think

                    europe

                    ugh i knooooow, this sucks lea-ugh maybe one day, sweetie aubrey-sad

                    wish i was less anxious

                    mood fr fr kitty-birthday-sad

                    going to have to go offline again (9h in the car kill me pls). sorry, sweetheart lea-sad

                    :3

                    biting was the plan, sweetness. emilie-smug

                    would love to delve deeper in this, but running out time. Will revisit this on the pc later today, sweetheart. Forgive me pls aubrey-sad

                    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                      2 months ago
                      recipe

                      It was 2 sticks butter, 1¼ cups flour, ¾ cup white sugar, ¾ cup packed brown sugar, 2 eggs, some baking soda, zest of 1 lemon, cinnamon, vanilla, and salt. Also 3 cups oats and as much butterscotch as youd like (we used a whole bag)

                      Mix the dry ingredients (sans sugar) all together. Mix the softened butter with the sugar, then beat in the eggs, lemon zest, and vanilla. Slowly mix in the dry ingredients. Then stir in the oats and butterscotch.

                      Bake at 375°F for like 10 minutes i think? Adjust baking times as needed.

                      Finally, juice a lemon and mix as much powdered sugar into the lemon juice as needed to make a glaze, and drizzle it over the cookies ^^

                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                        2 months ago
                        spoiler

                        thank you, sweetness. can never have too many recipes meow-petted feels good to be back on the keyboard lea-finger-guns

                        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                          2 months ago
                          spoiler

                          Ofc! ^^ if you can make it vegan id love to know how meow-bounce

                          feels good to be back on the keyboard

                          Never stop posting posting

                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
                            ·
                            2 months ago
                            the posting will never stop

                            vegan

                            everything can be made vegan, i just gotta workshop it a bit. I'll keep you posted, sweetie. lea-blush

                            They will hate to pry this board from my cold dead hands 07

                            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                              2 months ago
                              yayyy

                              I'll keep you posted, sweetie.

                              Yayy \^^/

                              I need more vegan and vegetarian recipes! I had a pretty good vegetarian enchilada recipe, but i lost it the last time i moved ralsei-pout.

                              cw carnist-ism

                              Ive been trying to move in a less meat-oriented direction with my food. Its been somewhat (?) successful, i only really eat meat if im eating out with people or someone is throwing away something (im not gonna let food go to waste, and especially meat, like, something died for this, im not gonna let it end up in the trash unless its literally rotting/unsafe for consumption).

                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                2 months ago
                                ^^

                                butterscotch might be hard to veganise, i mean i found a recipe already, but i could just use something that requires less effort, but would be about the same, have to look at this more tomorrow when I'm less tired edit: ah nevermind, found a good source from which to shop for a vegan variant ^^

                                I have so many vegan recipes bookmarked! here's one for enchiladas

                                I mean, that's fair. The whole idea is that you refrain from using animal products within your own means, if you're going to starve it's better to eat the meat. Ideals are hard to munch on, when your belly starts to high five your spine lea-why Atleast you're doing things, sweetie. That's more than like 95% of people in the west fucking seem to care aubrey-angry

                                • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                  2 months ago
                                  omg tysm!!!

                                  I have so many vegan recipes bookmarked! here's one for enchiladas

                                  This is wonderful tysm!! I really need to start making a recipe book for myself... I should get one of those moleskins and write everything down all pretty like ^^

                                  belly starts to high five your spine

                                  Ugh thats the perfect description for that feeling kitty-birthday-sad

                                  Atleast you're doing things, sweetie

                                  cuddle I try! I just dont have the brainspace to manage it while also managing the rest of my life aubrey-cry-1

                    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
                      ·
                      2 months ago

                      Forgiveness forever, im eeeeepy and going to sleep now. I hope your car drive is less rough than the drive out there! Nn lovely meow-hug

                    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
                      ·
                      2 months ago
                      :3

                      one day, sweetie

                      crush

                      9h in the car

                      I hope your car ride wasnt too terrible meow-hug

                      ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

                      biting was the plan, sweetness

                      biblically-accurate-kitty i like this plan, tell me more ;p

                      Forgive me pls

                      Always cat-trans

                      • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                        2 months ago
                        hewwo uwu

                        I hope your car ride wasnt too terrible

                        surprisingly painless this time around, read some gay slop and fell asleep twice, i think? not bad. mentally really tired and going to take a long shower soon but i have been neglecting the cute girl in my pc so i have to rectify this lea-happy

                        currently wearing some cat ears and some slight smoky eye going on because my makeup has run a bit meow-melt will probably post some pics into the main megathread tomorrow after i get out of work niko-yawn

                        how did you say it? heavy flirting, yeah that's good

                        so let me lay out the scene: You naked in my bed, hands tied. Blindfold? Hm maybe. I'm sitting on your stomach squeezing your midsection with my thighs (which are quite thicc as you recall). I'll lick my way up your sternum to your left ear and nibble it a bit, then I'll move lower to the spot where your neck and shoulder connect and bite down hard, sucking it a bit and letting go with a muted pop sound. I'll slowly nuzzle my nose on underneath your chin and do a little nibble right at the center of your throat. Then I'll move to the right side and give a little kiss to the neck there. I'll lower myself on your chest and cross my arms over it, whispering lightly "Beg for it."

                        Will you beg for it, sweetness?

                        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                          2 months ago
                          heia ^^

                          have been neglecting the cute girl in my pc so i have to rectify this

                          meow-melt

                          currently wearing some cat ears and some slight smoky eye going on because my makeup has run a bit

                          Omg cute! Smokey eyes are kind of amazing, but I dont do them very well on myself.

                          first the idk procedural anxiety sating bit sorry i know its not fun im just an anxious person

                          I just want to be sure of things, im not asking you to dox yourself, but i do want to know if youre a minor before this gets heavier. From the way youve talked, Im fairly certain you arent, but i had a moment of anxiety here and felt the need to ask, cause i know I did stuff like this when I was a young teen. For what its worth, im in the 25-35 age range meow-hug

                          Also just as an aside, are there things youd like me to avoid mentioning in the heavier bits here? On my end, i have some difficulties/dysphoria with my genitals, and dont like to think about or use them in the standard cishet way.

                          heavier :3

                          Laying here, sightless, held in place by your thighs. I stare up into the dark of the blindfold. Unable to move, feeling the wetness of your tongue as it slinkily parades its way up to my ear. A nibbling follows, and is punctuated with the sharp pain of a powerful bite and a yelp escaping my lips. A small muted pop reverberates through the room as you move your attention elsewhere. I feel you nuzzling up against my throat, and the little nibbles that follow send shivers through me. A kiss on the right side of my neck follows, and i feel you settle on my chest. "Beg for it" i hear you say. "please, I want-", the words are almost pulled out of me "I need you, more, please". A moment passes before the words escape my mouth: "please, I need it"

                          • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                            2 months ago
                            anxiety stuff

                            let's say that I'm in the 30-35 demographic. gloriously ruined by capitalism and definitely don't have my shit in order lea-breakdown yeah, let's just veer away from the genitals, need to get a surgery first lea-finger-guns . Never done this stuff before though, oooo let's see if my gay slop reading has been worth anything....eh besides the obvious. I definitely have a perfectionist streak, I'm being reminded basil-anxious

                            heavier

                            "Good girl." I murmur and start to slowly move forwards again, slowly nuzzling my way up to the cruelly neglected right side of the neck. Slowly painfully slowly tracing my teeth across the neck and bite down, pulling the skin a bit as I move and leaving a trail of bites all the way to the left side, where I stop again. "What do you need?" I ask while slowly moving my right hand along the line of marks already blossoming along the neck. "And do you think you deserve it?"

                            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                              2 months ago
                              anxiety stuff

                              meow-bounce meow-hug

                              heavier

                              good girl A shudder runs through my body a smile across my lips at the words. I feel the movement towards my neck, ever so slowly. A flash as I feel your teeth graze my flesh, and then more, they sink into me, not so deep as to break skin, but deep enough that I truly feel them. Deep enough to communicate intimate knowledge; I know my place beneath your teeth, wrapped in your thighs, Yours. The bites come slowly, so slowly. Moving across my neck. I feel my skin blooming at each one, until you come to stop at my left side. "What do you need?" the words slide from your lips into my mind as i feel you trace your fingers over your handiwork "And do you think you deserve it?". "I- you- I dont- I- you- need-" I stammer, unable to even begin forming a cogent answer to the questions. What do I need? The thought lingers for a moment before I reply: "You, your marks, your touch. I need to please and pleasure, and be pleasured. I need to belong and be yours. And I know I probably dont deserve it. Please, help me, help me deserve it."

                              • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]
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                                2 months ago
                                Rated H for Heavier

                                I hum and move my lips closer, sucking on the skin slightly and rising up. I move my hand up the right side of your neck into your scalp and grasp the hair in a tight grip. "Oh, sweetheart, no one is allowed to talk down to you, not even you." I whisper against your chin and tug your hair hard enough to expose more of that wonderfully soft skin and start biting and sucking on it, moving very slightly each time. Eventually releasing your hair and starting to scratch down your scalp soothingly, while moving my mouth to your ear and biting on the lobe and pulling it slightly with my teeth. "Are you sure you don't think you deserve this?" I whisper into your ear as I release the lobe, and softly move my hand from your hair over to your throat. Doing a slight squeeze with my thighs, and my hand at the same time. "Tell me you deserve this, sweetness."

                                • lilypad [she/her, null/void]
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                                  2 months ago
                                  blood type H+ cause its positively heavy

                                  With your hand tightly gripping my hair, I hear your voice in my ear.

                                  "Oh, sweetheart, no one is allowed to talk down to you, not even you."

                                  The words stir something in me, a feeling for which I have no name. Welling up inside me it spills over into devotion and emotional release, juxtaposed by the control you have over my head, the comfortable discomfort of the biting and sucking upon my skin, the pleasurable pain of it all. As your hand releases and scratches down my scalp in a soothing calming motion my head tilts back upright to meet your lips upon my ear, nibbling and grazing upon it, before whispering:

                                  "Are you sure you don't think you deserve this?"

                                  Words have abandoned my thoughts, and only color remains. Flashes of green and red compose the grammar, golden streaks form words, and blue undertones lay out the intonation. White hot points punctuate this sentence of color. I realize your hand is at my throat; I had been so distracted I hadnt noticed its soft movement thereto.

                                  "Tell me you deserve this, sweetness" The words are accompanied by a coordinated squeeze of your thighs round my torso and your hand on my throat, and crystallize my thought into words:

                                  "I deserve this, I want this, I need this; I want you"

                                  As the words vacate my lungs I feel your grip tighten slightly, not enough to choke or strangle, but enough that I know youre there, and know youve heard me.