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Yeah, I do fine when the person I'm talking with is also a good listener and gives the conversation some room to breathe, but I can't stand overbearing motormouth people. I don't usually talk much and usually only assert myself if I have something important to say, interrupting me irl can make me livid
Yeah I can sit and listen, I'm a great listener but I need some time to process too. Small talk I find boring, I hate gossip too so like that can make it difficult too depending on what someone else wants to talk about. Plus expect me to say I don't watch or know what you're talking about so please explain and take your time ^^ but yeah motormouth people it really depends on the subject, I can happily go into verbal shutdown and let them tell me what they're into, I do like infodumps but if it's a subject I'm not keen on or they're obnoxious and an asshole it won't be pretty.
I generally don't get angry that much or pissed off, people have cut me off and talked around me so I'd just go non verbal and wait until they or I have to leave but I can amuse myself.
i feel this, and yet I am one of those people who can't stop talking sometimes honestly, i have the classic "gotta get the words out" problem if i'm even remotely interested in the conversation, it's probably a lot to deal with tbh. i'm sure that tendency comes across in the frantic word jumbles with multiple immediate edits i call "posts" on this site (i jump around a lot when i'm writing, i already wrote the second paragraph...)
i worry a lot that when people get to know me that i can be overwhelming once the mask starts to slip, and well i overcompensate sometimes by trying not to have too many irl friends, although i want to change that a bit, even if we chat primarily over text itd be nice to have people that know my name, maybe live nearby so we can help each other out, etc. i'm trying to figure out all of this now that i understand myself better.
i even get really insecure about my posting online here "am i responding too much?" "is this really an appropriate context for an infodump?" "am i showing too much emotion?" "am i being creepy/clingy/annoying?" etc. i'm telling myself "it's ok it's ok, people here understand, they know you're autistic and this is a valid way to be." some friends in my past were not as kind
I respond a lot too, you're fine