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Let's have another good week everyone 
venting about some unexpected ptsd stuff (surgery regret)
I haven't gotten blood work since I was in the hospital almost 2 years ago. there are a lot of things I was aware of having trouble with after everything happened, but I haven't been to a big medical facility or had blood work since then. I figured I preferred not to going to a facility because it's annoying and outright didn't get blood work because it's not my favourite thing to do
in reality, that sinking feeling in my stomach happened as soon as I got the facility and I found myself in a fog as I struggled to stay focused. when I sat down to get my blood work it turned into actual dread and I very embarrassingly started tearing up. I'm sure the technician just thought I was nervous, but that wasn't it. I was able to hold off sobbing until I left, but the annoying tears and sinking feeling took a while to go away
just feel embarrassed over all of it
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Emotions are hard especially when trauma is involved. It's understandable reacting how you did.. it's not easy.
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You already know it's not necessarily about the poke, but crying when you're getting poked by a needle is very normal. Now, I work with kids and have to poke them sometimes but I've been called to start on an adult (kid veins are smaller so we're the more experienced team apparently) and they cry sometimes too.
Good for you for facing those fears though and getting your bloodwork done! That took really inner strength, I'm very proud of you