I can't stop thinking about it no matter how hard I try. It was in front of my whole class uuuugggghhhh
Don’t worry, in another ten years you’ll have mostly forgotten about that stuff and you’ll be embarrassed about what you’re doing today.
Certainly a classmate of mine remembers, because I threw up on her new shoes when the teacher was narrating that axe scene in Where The Red Fern Grows. I think it was 4th grade though. Sorry, Olivia.
Based throwing up tuna
Your body simply rejected the lead and mercury no matter what anyone thinks
I have OCD and get this pretty intensely every once in a while, there's stuff you can do about it
My personal method is based on my experience with IFS therapy/parts work, but truthfully I don't know if this will work for anyone but me. Still, I've had success with the following:
I envision the younger version of me that did the embarrassing thing. In my head, I see the current, adult version of myself talking to the younger one. I explain to my younger self that I don't find them shameful, that I understand why they acted the way they did, and that I forgive them for everything. I listen as the younger version brings up any additional concerns and offer any further reassurance/comfort/love that I wish to. It's important to take time with this and really sit with the uncomfortable feelings.
For me, this can resolve the acute shame feeling, and also prevent the memory from coming up again suddenly, or at least from hurting as much when it does.
If the cause is OCD, there are medications and talk therapy options for lessening the intensity and duration of intrusive thoughts.
The past is history. The future is a mystery. All that matters is—ahahahahaha, I can't keep a straight face! You were, are, and always will be cringe! Embrace your cringe, nerds!
Cringing at your past self is important. It means you've grown as a person
The fun thing about transition is it gave me a kind of clean break from my previous cringe (in my mind), but just as I tasted freedom I commited several more years of cringe in my early transition
I never have to think about how cringe I used to be because I never stopped being cringe
Most of my old cringe moments are funny and I use as conversation starters but a select few moments make me start grinding my teeth and shout lalalalala because they really are just that bad.
The people that know such moments if i ever saw them in public I'd probably jump in front of a bus to avoid speaking to them.
"cringe" is just your higher order social thinking brain reminding you that you're not supposed to do something because you may face social repercussions. The best way to learn is to make mistakes. Forgive yourself, accept that you have learned, and move on. Don't ruminate on your thoughts, if they are not helpful, let them pass you by without reacting.
me too, I wish I could apologize to everyone