Sending good vibes to all of my trans comrades 
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dysphoria
I feel bad about dysphoria sometimes, and I think it's because I still see myself as basically a guy still (I desperately need to fix this). Like I somehow shouldn't be worried/upset about how my chest will look because that's a girl thing.
Like what the hell brain :agony-shivering: literally why else would I be thinking about that. "oh wow I sure hope when I grow tits they don't look all fucky from my puberty" - something cis guys definitely think, stealing it from women.
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Don't worry about it too much, the longer you live openly as a woman the more you'll start to think of yourself as a woman on background.
I remember earlier when I was about 6 months on HRT thinking "well even if I detransition, I'll be pretty happy I have boobs now" like that's a normal cis guy thought lmao
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Yea I'm sure it will, it's already starting a little bit (even if it feels weird). Hopefully it's not too tied to my physical transition, that feels a little brainwormy but I'm doing good overall.
I love having a thought and then immediately being like "ha, bet a lot of cis guys think that".
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It's probably just a time thing, you've only known you're trans for what, 3 months now? For me it took like 6 before I could consistently use my name in my head and consistently thinking of myself as a woman took a year. And I wasn't on hormones during any of that process. Some smaller things took longer too, like lesbian felt weird to use until I actually had a relationship.
Probably about that? I've accepted it for only like half that time too. Its been quite the couple of months for me.
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I actually just realized earlier how upset deadnaming myself would be, like if I was introducing myself.
That's funny that lesbian was a hangup for you too, definitely feels weirder to me then woman (even though I don't like men at all, so what's that leave you with silly girl). Good its just a time thing.