I've been on E for almost 5 months now and one of the things I didn't expect from it is that wow, everything in the world is really pretty now! The sky looks nice! The trees are great! I never loved the changing colors of the fall leaves before but they're so much prettier than they were before? I need to spend more time in nature now, this is great! Is this something anyone else has ever felt?
Yeah, obviously dysphoria would contribute heavily to depression, and finally being comfortable with yourself will free you from that shit. @EstraDoll@hexbear.net you are experiencing the beginning of the rest of your life! Enjoy this shit!
you may have been suffering from derealization, its common among trans people. it makes everything look gray, blurry, and bad
Holy shit my nihilistic tendencies pre transition make so much sense now
Part of your brain that was occupied with dysphoria is freed up to appreciate the little things in life now
Yes! I live out in the woods so I'm pretty connected to nature, but I'd never cried because the trees were so pretty before now.
Probably the medroxyprogesterone.
so my understanding of E from the trip reports gals have been posting on here is it's kind of like LSD but you might get tits?
LSD but you might get tits?
might
that word is doing a lot of heavy lifting. give me like 2-3 months and I won't be able to hide them anymore
I’ve noticed something similar. I think part of it is having healthy functional emotions. I also think that, even though I’m still boymoding, the estrogen combined with having the mental state of a woman means I disassociate less and there’s more of a connectedness with the world around me that wasn’t there before.
I moved up to the pnw and immediately started hormones as soon as i could and i had this awakening over the course of the first few years where i realized i was willing to kill someone over a tree now and like, that goes deep. it's really spiritual, religious, mystical or whatever. going on a trail, even one of those basic bitch "it's paved and as flat as you can manage in washington" trails it's like, yeah this is true divinity i will kill e veryone who tries to diminish this with the zeal of a christian trying to retake the holy land during the first crusade so
i feel it
i'm six+ years in though
There's some evidence to suggest that cis women have greater color perception than cis men do. You are not the only transfem that has attested to this and you won't be the last either, it happened to me too. There are anecdotes about the reverse happening with people on FTM HRT, so there may be something to it. Too bad there's no way to quantify the change unless one were to have already taken some visual acuity test with a color component pre-HRT.
