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  • theytakemeawayfrom [he/him]
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    4 years ago

    so today i found out that i'm related to a family that hid lenin when he escaped from petrograd in 1917. he was literally writing state and rev while he was staying there. this makes me probably more excited than it should. my dad told me how he introduced himself decades ago to someone and a guy was like "oh, you're one of those lenin-hiders." apparently this was semi-common knowledge in this region at the time.

    rambly post but i regret nothing

  • wombat [none/use name]
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    4 years ago

    I am no longer convinced Biden will win the election. Every time he appears on camera it's a disaster

    • hotcouchguy [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      Someone at the grocery store fucking coughed right at me as I was walking by. That was a week ago and it still really bothers me.

      • artangels [he/him]
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        4 years ago

        im fine, thanks for asking comrade. my friend is moving away so i took the risk to hang out. we were outside wearing masks the entire time, we went on a walk. when we were almost back we went to a corner store and like 5 people came in without masks after us and now im overthinking... this is in a super lib city in california too so i was shocked.

        • Nakoichi [they/them]
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          4 years ago

          Dude they are out here in droves either tourists or just dumb motherfucking new age hipsters that are anti-mask. There's a frightening overlap with the crystal hippies and Q adjacent shit. (source my mom is an actual insane person).

          • artangels [he/him]
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            4 years ago

            lmao i live in a city with problably the highest concentration of those dumbass faux hippies in southern california. they are SO stupid, i hate them all. luckily my mom is a lib with trump derangement syndrome so she loves masks.

            • Nakoichi [they/them]
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              4 years ago

              The new age hippie-spiritual type to Qanon to eco-fascism pipeline is real and fuckin scary.

          • artangels [he/him]
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            4 years ago

            thanks.

            yeah i know i should be fine but i still get so freaked out sometimes.... i get a little claustrophobic now i guess, i already have bad anxiety lol but now this is making me go to extremes.

            • QuillQuote [they/them]
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              4 years ago

              It's okay to be freaked out sometimes, I know there are times for me when I'm overwhelmed when sometimes the smallest things can set me off and I used to be really hard on myself for it, which only made it worse. If you're anything like me just remember that it's okay to not be okay <3

              • artangels [he/him]
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                4 years ago

                That shit sucks. But thanks it’s always glad to know most people feel the way I feel.

                • QuillQuote [they/them]
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                  4 years ago

                  We're all in this together, especially here where we don't shy away from it and actively lean into solidarity <3

                  If you ever need anything feel free to reach out okay? It's never a bother :)

      • sappho [she/her]
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        4 years ago

        Same here. Later I found this article about adjustment reactions in response to crisis and I feel like it perfectly characterizes what I went through.

  • axolotl [he/him]
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    4 years ago

    some recent events. my friend's old house of 13 people were collectively served a 3-day eviction notice. 13 fuckin people that live there.

    i've run into some serious arguments with a couple of my closest friends over Maoist thought. i've been trying to read more Mao and explore his works, and sometimes i pass those on to friends. but damn, the level of just totally written-off scorn with which the suggestion that Mao might be worth reading really blew my mind. one suggested i'm going too far and implied that i should get therapy or something. and it's making me have a couple thoughts:

    one, why am i doing this? am i intentionally alienating my friends because i want to agree on what for most people are not central issues, like what for a more mainstream demsoc might be fringe and extremist thought? am i getting too focused on this and losing the bigger picture of overall solidarity with friends? on the other hand, that solidarity in understanding is what i'm seeking by talking with my left friends about theory. i want to be on the same level, and progress together toward a better world. but i also don't want to lose my friends over this. that would be so silly.

    just finding that difficult. and honestly feeling my mental health kind of spiral out in a way, that part's true. i feel like i'm walking down a path from which i will never return; and much of me welcomes that, i feel certain in my heart that it is just.

    these are tough times, comrades. sending you all love out there.

      • axolotl [he/him]
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        4 years ago

        and there he is. i probably just have to give space for a while and maybe try from a different angle. the conversation was partly centered on them realizing that even scandanavian socialist countries do imperialism, and that therefore demsoc reform might not actually be the most effective counter to global capitalism.

        so there's some distance to travel before we can really get there. bringing Mao into it at that point when i'm still trying to get him to acknowledge that armed revolutionary struggle has a place and that place may be here and now, is probably doing too much.

      • Parzivus [any]
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        4 years ago

        This one hits a little too close to home ngl

      • axolotl [he/him]
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        4 years ago

        it's not quite so bad as all that, so don't stress yourself on my account. my friend is a demsoc, and is just scared of reading Lenin and Mao right now. that's understandable, my perception of the world got blown the fuck open by both of them. I'm a communist and I'm not going to stop being a communist.

        the ultimate move is not to sacrifice the theory for the friendship, nor the friendship for the theory, but progress along it in the way that friendships do offering points that support what I see to be truth along the process. I'm not gonna change anyone's mind about this ; I'm just some guy. the events that are coming will be the ones to change their mind. all I can do is be there when it happens.

    • penguin_von_doom [she/her]
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      4 years ago

      Don't push reading Mao on them. Mao is scary. I'm scared of reading Mao. Instead get them to talk and present Maoist viewpoints, maybe get them to agree. It doesn't matter if Mao (or whoever) came up with them for people to understand or adopt them

    • LeninWalksTheWorld [any]
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      4 years ago

      Mao's works are literally studied by the US military so they can try to understand (and combat) his god-tier theories on political and military organization. Your friends say you need therapy? That's insanely toxic on their part first of all. Secondly your friends knowledge of Mao sounds like it extends to "lol commie no food lol" and you shouldn't feel compelled to take them seriously on a topic they don't know anything about.

      "No investigation, no right to speak" - Mao "Ze big dong" Zedong

    • Amorphous [any]
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      4 years ago

      Honestly, just stop discussing radical stuff with them. Read it, look into it, understand it, hopefully find friends you can talk about it with. But keep it separate from the people who don't understand it at all.

      • axolotl [he/him]
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        4 years ago

        that's a simple solution and probably the easiest. it's strange separating politically from a person you've otherwise shared everything with for years, more or less.

    • blipblip [she/her, they/them]
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      4 years ago

      I don't have anything helpful to add but you edited the comment while I was reading it and my brain broke trying to figure out where I was. I thought I was losing it lmao

      • axolotl [he/him]
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        4 years ago

        haha, yeah the live element of this website is a new way of interacting with shit. i always look at my comment after and feel the need to rephrase things.

  • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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    4 years ago

    I am drunk and still thinking about my ex. My only hope for this world is global socialism. May America die and may we see a new, better world be built, Chapos!:clinking glasses::clinking glasses::clinking glasses:

  • eylligator [undecided,any]
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    4 years ago

    Since its sad bitch hours: im slowly coming to the terms with the fact that i will probably always feel like some sort of alien in mind and body. Which scares me to think about but also oddly comforting

    • FUCKTHEPAINTUP [any]
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      4 years ago

      lean into it tho

      pretend you are an alien, decolonize your mind

      the less you fit in, the better

    • hotcouchguy [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      Is there a name for it when you're cis but you still have some kind of dysphoria because your body just kind of sucks in general?

  • DasKarlBarx [he/him,comrade/them]
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    4 years ago

    I live pretty close to the beach. When I walk my dogs around the neighborhood 95% of people are in masks walking around the last few weeks.

    When I walk like a half mile to the beach path, it drops to like 30%. It's insane.

  • coppercrystalz [he/him]
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    4 years ago

    Thinking of the posts that remind us of the good times and the posts that remind us of the best times

  • sailorfish [she/her]
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    4 years ago

    Wooh, finished my Goodreads challenge of reading 50 books this year! 😁

    • budoguytenkaichi [he/him,they/them]
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      4 years ago

      Ye, I like em' overall. The cold hard truth is that if you want to attract the average person to your beliefs, you have to entertain them at the same time. That's why people pay infinitely more attention to individual entertainers/personalities than actual professional organizations.

      It's important for the left to have some sort of significant presence on arguably the internet's biggest platform, and they're probably about as good as it's gonna get in that regard for the foreseeable future, so I'm glad they're there.

    • Vapor [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      Breadtube is like an okay entry point into leftism if you are a run of the mill centrist or liberal, but its got problem children like Vaush and in general has largely failed imho in attracting people to further left options than radlib/socdem stuff.

      • ElGosso [he/him]
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        4 years ago

        I disagree, if it weren't for Contrapoints and PhilosophyTube I never woulda ended up here. Granted, that was 2017, so Breadtube was a little different, but credit where credit's due

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      4 years ago

      Thank the good lord that Vaush isn't the whole of Breadtube or else I would say it sucks but there's still some good content out there.

    • SimAnt [any]
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      4 years ago

      Most of them don't seem to be Twitch formatted to me, though? Vaush is a dipshit, of course, but that doesn't negate the thoughtful creators like Thought Slime.