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CW dysphoria, body stuff, brainworms
Ive been feeling so weird about my breasts lately. Ive been diy my whole transition, and theres these worms in my brain telling me thats why my breasts are so small. Theyre just little cones! They protrude enough that they fit depthwise into a c cup (or b or d depending on brand and style), but they have so little volume. I keep trying to go get my levels checked (never done that before 😭) but its really difficult for me, cause of timing and no health insurance, but also because im terrified ill go in and the doctor will basically tell me ive ruined any chance of having breasts larger than an a cup. I worry that monotherapy isnt working for me anymore, and while i can get hormones and perscriptions im so bad at going to this place to get them that I havent, despite having had access for over 6 months. I just want breasts proportional to my body damn it! I want to look like a girl even when im not exclusively wearing clothing that is super flattering on me!
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I don't know how to reassure you but,
Absolutely the same wish for me :meow-hug: the worry is real.
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Like every transfemme who wants breasts that ive talked to feels exactly this way (and then theres one or two who want giant breasts).
Idk, i know implants are a thing, but ive got brainworms around those as well, and also just dont want to deal with needing to replace them every 5-15 years. Cant they just grow me some breasts in a lab and slap em on my body already!? Like damn why do we even have this cloning science if we dont use it for good!?
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There's also transfems (generally enbies) who either don't want boobs/want small ones or aren't sure what they want (the latter is me).
Absolutely! To be clear i was trying to restrict my statment to people i know who are transfemme and want breasts; i was trying to exclude the transfemmes i know who dont want or are ambivalent about breasts from my statement :)
This is kind of how I feel about mine
you probably already know this so sorry in advance, but just in case: breasts grow over decades, mine are still sore sometimes 15 years later. Its very normal for them to grow out and then fill in. But also sometimes switching meds up helps ive heard (I would be scared to get even more growth at this point but I admit I wish they were a bit fuller)
I know this, but i struggle to know this. Like its really hard to internalize it.