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Let's have another good week everyone 
been thinking a lot about ropes and chains recently
kink stuff
me: im not that into this bdsm stuff
also me: this slip chain choker leash that can be used for self bondage hasnt left my mind since i saw it hours ago
kink, leather
Me getting interested in kink: hmm ya know that shibari stuff is real pretty, i want to be tied like that, but thats it.
Literally a day (and a solid spanking) later: ok i braided myself a leash and collar, now heres 3 books on making singletails and a whole mess of guides on making floggers of various types. Im gonna buy some tools and then, hmm... How much do leather strips cost around here?
it kinda creeps up on you
I feel like it creeped at first, then just charged and ran me down (🥺) like an old timey train.
you might be right tbh, i started today thinking about ropes and now i'm thinking about
kinks ofc
knife play and blood with maybe some scarification too
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Knife play is one of those that truly scares me, i have a specific thing around sharps and blood, anf while knifeplay is very alluring in my mind, i think its relegated to "act in" fantasy for me, instead of an "act out" fantasy.
That being said, bruising and drawing blood with floggers/whips/etc. is very appealing. I think its specifically the sharp aspect for me
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i have some experience with sharp edges and bleeding, so the sharpness is the thing that really gets me going. also someone actively trying to scare me with biting my neck WHILE using the knife on the other side of my neck is uhh....yeah.
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Ok being trapped between biting and a blade is kinda hot ngl
Idk, i think my hesitancy is because I know how bad things can go with knives (yayy unsupervised childhood) and i dont really trust myself or others with them. Idk, like it definitely is in the realm of "sometimes i find this appealing, sometimes not, but whenever i find it appealing its exclusively an "act in" fantasy.
I get similarly squicked by whips wrapping around my body due to incompetence (when its purposeful and controlled that can be really hot), specifically because i dont trust the other person to control their strikes at that point. It snaps me out of the scene, and not in a check in "come back up top for me so i know your ok. Ok cool you can go down again" kind of way.
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i know right!
yeah i can understand the hesitance around knives, but if you'd like to test the waters, i did see a cute wooden knife for knife play on etsy. you could also use the dull edge or just a straight up a dull blade. that way you can still get the experience without the risk of a fuck-up. but obviously you know your limits
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Aww ty for the suggestions! Tbh rn i dont have anyone i trust with that degree of play in my life, so its kinda relegated to the back burner regardless.
I also just discovered this emoji
and i love it, lowkey want to take a stylized tattoo of it now 
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welcome
we have the best emojis folks, i think that one was a meme someone posted on the subreddit years ago, but don't quote me on that
Tbh the emoji are what made me move from another lemmy instance over here (that and seeing everyone say hexbear was super transphobic and hateful while every hexbear i interacted with was actually backing their claims up with links and giant effortpost comments.
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For now Im happy just doing bondage and impact play, with some degredation and service. Its something thats important to me but ive never found a partner who A) i trust and B) can match me where im at. My current kind-of-partner-ish-person gets tired after an hour of whipping/flogging, but half the time when she calls the scene i just want more and its like the more i get the more i want. I had a partner who liked electroplay but im not super comfy with it (mostly cause of lack of education, plus ive been jolted enough times that its not a thrill or otherwise sexual anymore
(idk, at this point it just takes me back to doing electrical stuff and like, i dont want to think about soldering or breadboarding while playing, yk?)).
hell yeah, sis!
s are showing their reddit roots with all the projection they do.
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electroplay, like shock collars and stuff? hm. also yeah there are a few things as sexy as soldering reminds me of primary school
good luck trying to find those limits, uhh... eventually. also yeah trust is a massive issue for me too. not even about being trans and shit, but like someone or a couple of someones whom i could trust with hurting me seems like a far fetched dream at times
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Yeah, shock collars, electrowands, electrified buttplugs, etc.
Yeah nothing is as offputting as being in the middle of a scene and then suddenly thoughts of op amps go through your mind 🙃
Most of my limit issues revolve around trust. I hope you can find someone(s) who you trust to hurt you <3
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You didn't have to give me that thought
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Ill try to avoid giving you more thoughts! (Unless you want more thoughts).
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I really don't want any more thoughts that involve another person
No more thoughts! Only your own thoughts :)
@TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net was right, you are incredibly adorable
>.< shtoppp please
I'm so embarrassed now
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I saw this collar once at a munch, it was beautiful. Like metal lace and each like of the lace delicate chain had a hook on the inside pointing towards the subs necks. Prettiest thing I've ever seen, cannot find it anywhere
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hm? oh dont mind me, just making some notes dw about it
If you want to take up my search, they called it a vampire collar. I have never been able to search for it by that name, too much cosplay or costume stuff. There are vampire gloves with nice little sharp pokeys in the fingers I love, so maybe that's the idea. The hooks in the collar were almost like fish hooks, not as big and very very pretty but that should give you an idea on the sharpness
yeah i saw both the collars and gloves on etsy.
they also had these foot spike things you can put inside a shoe and i think that's definitely not for me, because goddamn
do a big think about why i'm unlocking new kinks every day
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probably something to do with how i actually want to explore my sexuality without feeling ashamed
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That's great, shame around sexuality is the worst.
I am still holding out hope I will get less sexual though. Please E
take it away.
Funnily enough I never had any shame and still don't. Probably my funny chemistry. I have always been interested in kinks and such lol especially some of the more obscure things.
HRT should help a lot, things will be different in a good way.
anatomy thoughts
I used to feel weird about why I feel so strongly about my anatomy but not shame about it.. more feeling like it is wrong as in not correct, have felt that as long as I can remember.
hate to do this to you, cutie, but E probably wont take the horny away
in my experience the testo-blockers will though
It's fairly common c: