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Let's have another good week everyone 
been thinking a lot about ropes and chains recently
kink stuff
me: im not that into this bdsm stuff
also me: this slip chain choker leash that can be used for self bondage hasnt left my mind since i saw it hours ago
kink, leather
Me getting interested in kink: hmm ya know that shibari stuff is real pretty, i want to be tied like that, but thats it.
Literally a day (and a solid spanking) later: ok i braided myself a leash and collar, now heres 3 books on making singletails and a whole mess of guides on making floggers of various types. Im gonna buy some tools and then, hmm... How much do leather strips cost around here?
it kinda creeps up on you
I feel like it creeped at first, then just charged and ran me down (🥺) like an old timey train.
you might be right tbh, i started today thinking about ropes and now i'm thinking about
kinks ofc
knife play and blood with maybe some scarification too
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Knife play is one of those that truly scares me, i have a specific thing around sharps and blood, anf while knifeplay is very alluring in my mind, i think its relegated to "act in" fantasy for me, instead of an "act out" fantasy.
That being said, bruising and drawing blood with floggers/whips/etc. is very appealing. I think its specifically the sharp aspect for me
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i have some experience with sharp edges and bleeding, so the sharpness is the thing that really gets me going. also someone actively trying to scare me with biting my neck WHILE using the knife on the other side of my neck is uhh....yeah.
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Ok being trapped between biting and a blade is kinda hot ngl
Idk, i think my hesitancy is because I know how bad things can go with knives (yayy unsupervised childhood) and i dont really trust myself or others with them. Idk, like it definitely is in the realm of "sometimes i find this appealing, sometimes not, but whenever i find it appealing its exclusively an "act in" fantasy.
I get similarly squicked by whips wrapping around my body due to incompetence (when its purposeful and controlled that can be really hot), specifically because i dont trust the other person to control their strikes at that point. It snaps me out of the scene, and not in a check in "come back up top for me so i know your ok. Ok cool you can go down again" kind of way.
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You didn't have to give me that thought
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Ill try to avoid giving you more thoughts! (Unless you want more thoughts).
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I really don't want any more thoughts that involve another person
No more thoughts! Only your own thoughts :)
@TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net was right, you are incredibly adorable
>.< shtoppp please
I'm so embarrassed now
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I saw this collar once at a munch, it was beautiful. Like metal lace and each like of the lace delicate chain had a hook on the inside pointing towards the subs necks. Prettiest thing I've ever seen, cannot find it anywhere
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hm? oh dont mind me, just making some notes dw about it
If you want to take up my search, they called it a vampire collar. I have never been able to search for it by that name, too much cosplay or costume stuff. There are vampire gloves with nice little sharp pokeys in the fingers I love, so maybe that's the idea. The hooks in the collar were almost like fish hooks, not as big and very very pretty but that should give you an idea on the sharpness
yeah i saw both the collars and gloves on etsy.
they also had these foot spike things you can put inside a shoe and i think that's definitely not for me, because goddamn
do a big think about why i'm unlocking new kinks every day
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probably something to do with how i actually want to explore my sexuality without feeling ashamed
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That's great, shame around sexuality is the worst.
I am still holding out hope I will get less sexual though. Please E
take it away.
Funnily enough I never had any shame and still don't. Probably my funny chemistry. I have always been interested in kinks and such lol especially some of the more obscure things.
HRT should help a lot, things will be different in a good way.
anatomy thoughts
I used to feel weird about why I feel so strongly about my anatomy but not shame about it.. more feeling like it is wrong as in not correct, have felt that as long as I can remember.
hate to do this to you, cutie, but E probably wont take the horny away
in my experience the testo-blockers will though
It's fairly common c: