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bottom dysphoria
:agony-shivering: I fucking hate random erections, they give me bottom dysphoria every single time and now I can't get back to sleep. So now I'm probably going to need to take a girl nap later or I'll feel like shit.
Like come on brain :cri: you've already put me through a lot can you please not make me deal with bottom dysphoria? I've already cried while masterbating can that be it? Just be done with it? I'm okay being a girl with a penis. If no brain worms why do I have dysphoria :kitty-cri:
I don't know I really just don't want to deal with bottom dysphoria and I'm scared it'll get worse.
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random erections will go away after a while when your testosterone is blocked sufficiently
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I really hope they do for me and that I can block this fucking testosterone soon.
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let's hope you shall receive your testo removal juice soon
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Because anatomy does stupid uncool things you don't like, probably, right? Which sucks. I used to spend a lot of time flexing my thighs and stuff to redirect bloodflow anywhere else, takes it down pretty quick.
Fwiw since you are okay with your anatomy, I predict this will get better instead of worse. Cool effects of estrogen & etc!
E: I also find that uh, the socio-cultural-societal, y'know that kinda shit, around anatomy, is troublesome. For me an automatic huge dysphoria trigger is reading any thread about DUDES talkin bout THEIR DICKS because, I dunno, I don't fucking wanna be in that context, it's not me. And yet people think my anatomy meets those criteria. So separating those in your head can be a task but is v helpful. Idk if this applies to you but might help?
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That's a good idea, I don't know why I always forget about that.
I hope so. But like am I okay with it :kitty-cri: like clearly I'm upset about it right now. And I also don't like the idea of it while I'm like, going about my day. I don't know. It doesn't like make me want to cry then but I don't like the idea of having a bulge yaknow. Need to try tucking, wish I could.
Hmm, that is a good thought. I'll try to keep that in mind as something to separate.
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Kind of a lifesaver when I first learned that, it still sucks but at least you can get rid of em ✨
Haha why are you kinda me
I really feel the tucking thing... Your feelings on the subject might stay the same or evolve, both with hrt and personal growth, I've had a lot of drastically shifting views about it lol. You don't have to have a firm decision or feeling about your anatomy right now so try not to stress over that at least. Bottom dysphoria is a fuck =)
I'm so glad to hear you say your views are shifting, I literally just got a referral sent off for surgery and I'm like "am I feeling normal because it doesn't matter or because its finally going to be resolved???"
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bottom dysphoria is super weird agreed, but can confirm that I felt like 75% better when I got the T blocked and it didn't feel/look like it was randomly possessed by some horny spirit
Thank you =) I decided if I am gonna get bottom surgery I have to think about it more. This mega helped me realise I was just sort of being moved along by cisnormativity, I think.
lol rad
Same same, I truly consider natal transfemme anatomy to be entirely seperate from that of a cisgender man. Not really remotely comparable, E makes it so different (better)
For some reason when I stationary bike that makes it swell :(
Wtf really? Making a note to avoid stationary biking ig. Regular bike seems okay to my body at least.
I think focusing on your breath can help make it go away?