Final Fantasy XI
Final Fantasy XI is the eleventh numbered installment in the… Okay, you know what it is, I’m just going to tell you about one of the storylines!
During the Wings of the Goddess expansion, adventurers will be sent back in time to experience the events of the Crystal War, a cataclysmic event that is the foundation for conflicts of the modern-day timeline. Should an adventurer choose to serve the Kingdom of San d’Oria, they will be immersed in the story of the Young Griffons—a group of children who would see themselves knights, many of whom grow into prominent characters later in life.
Among the Young Griffons, the player will find Bistillot, a shy boy who doesn’t like to be seen. With his penchant for engineering, shy demeanor, and lack of combat potential, Bistillot prefers to spend his time inside of an orcish war machine that he was able to repair to working condition.
He is often seen before he is heard, with his signature phrase, “HAAAALLOOOOOOOOO” being used to hail the adventurer. Through the course of the story, Bistillot finds his way, even contributing to the war effort with his engineering skills.
However, when another member of the Young Griffons is kidnapped and taken to the present day, the adventurer must return to the present day and reunite with the Young Griffons’ present selves! The adventurer’s first contact in the present day is Bistillot. When the adventurer hears the signature “HAAAALLOOOOOOO,” Bistillot approaches the player, but what the player sees is… a woman?? She introduces herself as Bostilette, a “friend of Bistillot.”
After the rescue mission, Bostilette comes clean. She is, of course, the very same Bistillot who was a little boy twenty years earlier. She explains that she was very sick as a baby, so her parents gave her a boy’s name so that she would be stronger and survive the illness. Once she overcame the illness, she was comfortable to reclaim her name and gender. Well, that closes the book on that story, except… I’ve decided that’s bullshit!
I have unilaterally decided that Bostilette is trans, the sickness she had was dysphoria, she stayed in the orcish war machine because she was an egg, and I hope you all agree!
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mopey blogposting
Been trying to avoid trans spaces/content online (including here, though I’ve posted in the megathread a few times) for the last few weeks, trying to convince myself that I can just live as a feminine cis man, but now I realize I can’t do it. It’s not what I want for myself, and if anything my dysphoric feelings get worse from intentionally ignoring that.
I finally bought an article of girl clothes - a pair of gym shorts. Is that weird? Shorts? I want something fitted and the most fitted men’s shorts I’ve been able to try were still too baggy for my liking (though that’s probably for a reason that might become a problem with my new purchase… we’ll see when it arrives).
I’m still off the booze, will be a full 30 days tomorrow. I try to tell myself I started this for vague health reasons, but really it’s because I know orally administered HRT can be hard on your liver, and even though there are other ways, I want to at least have a chance of keeping it an option. This is probably the longest I’ve abstained for the past decade, so the damage might be irreversible, but it’s worth trying.
they're comfy and easy to wear! plus it was pretty cheap ($8 shipped) so absolute worst case scenario, it's not a huge waste of money
That’s good to hear. I love shorts and have always preferred the girl ones. It’s not weird. It’s like my main fem piece of clothing most of the time.
yeah, it seems like a pretty typical everyday thing for women to wear (compared to dresses), especially in places where it's hot most of the year. I guess I just thought it was weird since most seem to go for dresses or skirts as their first girl clothes. Someday for sure
I mean, I’d consider it a special gender/aesthetic item as much as practical. More important to me than skirts or dresses (which I do like).
I was definetly not brave enough to go for dresses and skirts, my first clothes were shorts as well.
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Congrats on the sobriety! That's a huge milestone. Yes, sobriety will be a good thing for your health (alcohol is carcinogenic, so you got not having that in your system now).
Also, congrats on trying on feminine stuff and gender stuff!!