I now hate pretty much everything I used to enjoy and the only things I still enjoy also make me more angry and frustrated. I blame John Stewart.
Not to mention always being "that guy" in conversations with literally anyone
Not as good at parties anymore. Keep calling everyone bumping into me reactionaries and mumbling about bread
I can't tell if people like me in spite of it, because of it, or are just being polite.
Probably the 3rd option.
I am not going to stop.
It's that or soccer, and I think most Americans would 100% rather talk politics than soccer.
Idk I had some (soc-demmy) friends who moved away in the spring and I basically went unfiltered with them just cause it wouldn't matter a whole lot. Over the few weeks leading up to the move, they kept hanging out with me (a bit surprising haha), and now they're frustrated talking to Klobuchar loving libs in their new city lol
Saw (well, video chatted) my therapist for the first time in a few months. Brought up the political isolation and all that. And she basically told me to stop being so informed and maybe compromise more. Talk about just reinforcing my point.
Listen goldsound, have you tried meeting the fires halfway? Have you tried reasoning with the reactionary cops that want to kill you?
Liberalism is such a fucking diseased mindset. Politics is a zero sum game. Personal relationships are not.
This is why I won't go to therapy even when my friends insist. I've gone before and their solution to everything is to just focus inwards, focus on yourself, you don't owe anyone else anything, you're an island and you can make that island happy. It's liberal bullshit. The only time they talk about your relationship with others is in a kind of transactional way where they want to see what you can get out of others (emotionally, not materially). I think psychotherapy is meant to perpetuate liberal hegemony. I don't want to talk about me me me, I'm not depressed because of brain chemicals, I'm depressed because of the state of the fucking world.
Adam Curtis' Century of the Self, a documentary series on the triumph of individualism - presented as a liberal way to distribute power to everybody, while concretely, and paradoxically, driving mass-consumerism - starts from the work of Sigmund Freud. Watch here .
I watched it a couple years ago, and I remember it validating my feelings about therapy at the time. I might watch it again.
That really sucks. "Why don't you just stop thinking?" doesn't seem like a good take for a therapist.
Part of the problem with that as well, which I tried to explain to her, is that sometimes listening to these podcasts/reading articles/watching videos/etc. that get me angry and informed and depressed also make me feel a bit better because they are the only way I can feel validated sometimes. It's really nice to hear a human voice say "don't worry, you're not completely insane. We see it too." I love my family and friends, but I wish that I had someone outside my SO like that in real life.
"What Concentration Camps?" I ask, shortly before the bombs begin to fall on my home town of Dresden.
my significant other has experienced this with like a dozen different therapists since 2011. The advice is always to focus on things that make you happy and I shit you not, do coloring book activities to de-stress. ..
My therapist said I could get help the “get out the vote” campaign. I just let it go.
I've found it so difficult to find a therapist for this reason. Especially now that I'm a therapist myself, I can't deal with my colleagues who face the void of insane human suffering and misery every fucking day and then think, "this is fine."
For comrades reading this - there ARE like-minded therapists out there. If you can, I recommend steering away from therapists who focus on individual deficit modalities like CBT or DBT. Try to find someone who is more humanistic, existential, client-centered. Acceptance and Commitment Therapy is worth a shot. It may take many attempts to find the right person and I believe it is genuinely helpful once you get there.
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Having y'all around really fucking helps. So thank you all for being you. Please never change.
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There needs to be a commune where we all can go to share theory and bread. I'm ready to unplug from Western Society and build something more human.
I'm not much of a baker, but get me a stove top and I can contribute a ton of tastiness.
Gonna have to figure out how to make a vegan bechamel though...
Gonna have to figure out how to make a vegan bechamel though…
From each according to their ability, to each according to their need.
Thanks a bunch! I guess I'm a little surprised a plant based milk would work the same, but I guess I've made a roux with olive oil and flour before....and that's the important part.
I am just vegetarian, not vegan, but would want to cook inclusively.
I did just make a nearly vegan "Italian style drunken noodle" last night. But the noodles use eggs. Accidentally bought LightLife sausages, but they tasted pretty good. Their bacon and their hot dogs were not good, so I had intended to grab a different brand.
No problem comrade! We are all in this tog...wait...
LightLife...their bacon and their hot dogs were not good...
Guards! We have a Trotskyist over here! Take him to Re-education!
Seriously though, I haven't had a hot dog in so long I forgot what "normal" ones taste like, but if you throw them in a toaster oven or grill they are WAY better than microwaving in a bowl of water like they recommend.
I really craved hot dogs, and they were the only meatless ones I could find. Tried them first cooked in a pan, the second time tried them in the toaster oven. I wasn't a fan.
Don't get me started on their lifeless, boring imitation bacon. I'd rather just do bac'n bits next time.
Other brands do it a bit better, but now when I want tubed "meat" I tend to go for Field Roast. Grill it up, do some peppers and onions, stack that on a potato hot dog bun, mustard, hot sauce, and relish....mmmmmm
That sounds tasty, and now I'm hungry too early in the day. Thanks for the rec!
Yeah let's go out in the woods and leave everyone else behind to be slaughtered by the trajectory of american fascism
Big mood. I can't really engage with television or radio at all anymore, I swear I can just see the slurry of liberalism leaking out, when they're on, and that just makes me absolutely livid in ways I didnt think could be done.
Right. And then I reach for like David Harvey to calm my nerves. And it does at the moment. But it then opens my eyes to brave new ways of hating everything about the world we live in.
I honestly can't bear to watch any sort of TV news. It's insanely infuriating.
you ever start talking with somebody who doesn't really follow politics and doesn't know which one are the republicans and which are the democrats?
I definitely enjoy sports a lot less than I used to. Some of that could just be getting older. But I'm getting to the point I just can't stand the overt commercialism, and how the leagues try and squeeze every cent out of their product. I know this is kind of a "sportsball bad" take, but I find myself resenting just how much of our lives sports takes up. Covid has really shown me, for a lot of my friendships, if we don't have sports we don't have a lot to talk about.
Then again, as sports have gotten less important to me I haven't found myself really missing them...
Yes, I was a huge football fan (Actual football, "Soccer" UGH) till I became a Communist. I still enjoy the sport but from another perspective
Capitalism has completely ruined football, absolutely, 100%. Teams are just companies, brands, selling their shit, with CEOs and Marketing Departments, completely devoid of what used to make them actual clubs, were people would hang out and engage in other activities other than football (like basketball, tennis, social, you name it). There's so much corruption, so much money thrown around when we're in the middle of the worst fucking crisis we've ever seen, it's just too fucking insane.
Another thing that has ruined it is the football culture itself, particularly our culture (Argentina, so yeah). People here are absolutely lunatics when it comes to football, people have DIED watching fucking football, yes, people have been KILLED for wearing another team's shirt. The patriarchal culture in football is also insane, threatening other fans to rape them, to kill them, "We just fucked them in the ass" they say after their shitty team won 1-0 in a irrelevant game. Racism? Oh god, don't even get me started.
After gaining an ideology, after seeing people insult and kill each other for NON MATERIAL THINGS, after seeing the disaster Capitalism has made on football... I can't take it anymore. I just can't. I need to shut my brain down in order to see a match, try to ignore these small (big) details that make professional (and commercial) football just shit. Pure shit.
COVID has shown me that Football isn't important, like it all, we havne't had matches for months now and I don't even miss them. I remember I used to listen to a radio program about two years ago, a caller was asked "Which team are you a fan of?" And he said "Well, Football is the most important thing of the least important things that exist". True.
You kind of have to just detach a little bit or else you'll go crazy.
Yeah I know. I kind of feel like that is a contradiction that is killing us, as you don't develop leftist politics if you don't have any empathy. So then seperating myself from my empathy in order to keep my sanity because of my politics kind of fucks with me. Does that make any sense at all?
Makes perfect sense. How this usually is with me I'm detached and stoic, outwardly at least, like 95% of the time, then when something really hits me I either cry or get really fucking mad and that's the 5%.
Usually there's like this sleeping volcano that I keep hidden because fuck if I let it blow up I might go and do bodily harm to a landlord or something. edit in GTA naturally
When I say detach, I mean in relation to trying to radicalize shitlibs or normies who don't follow politics. Libs and normies aren't really ready to hear that everything they know about the world is wrong, evil, exploitive, and going to kill us all. It's better to slowly radicalize these people.
You shouldn't ever cut yourself off from the empathy and love you have for your fellow human being, that's why we're all here.
Literacy and it's consequences have been a disaster for the human race
Oh no I typed that oh god oh fuck
It is fine it was good bit I AM STILL WRITING STUFF FUCK FUCK FUCK HATE THIS
Is there a leftist to well meaning lib pipeline somewhere? Cause I want in. On tik tok maybe? I don't understand tik tok.
You can't go back, you took the red pill once you read some theory
Yeah I've gone through depressive phases and I'm lucky enough that this one is coinciding with weed getting cheaper and me making more money. I probably spend like $100/mo on it. I also know someone who is a manager at a dispensary and she will give me some of the freebies vendors give her for free. My biggest spending problem right now is food. I spend $20 on Uber Eats way too often and never go grocery shopping.
Not making food isn't a rational decision, I have all the stuff I need to make nice meals I just don't because I respond to depression with laziness.
I think, in this case, being into older works helped me a lot in this regard. When you're reading a lot of stuff made 100+ years ago, you walk in with the assumption that you're going to be experiencing a worldview conflicting with or even antithetical to your own. I think that makes it easier to engage with modern media like that too.
That and I get super baked before consuming much of my media intake which helps too.
call me a lib but some of us wouldn't be here if it weren't for john and several others down the liberal-to-left pipeline
Compartmentalization is the key. It helps being able to pack your politics away for a little while and just grill, because otherwise you'll drive yourself insane and burn out before you can be of use to anyone.
Also better for personal relationships. If you can surround yourself with only leftists that's great, but I'm guessing 99% can't. Social contact and building relationships is important and since leftist views aren't mainstream you can use them as a be all end all filter for friendship.
