Late night depression/anxiety posting whose up :agony-deep:
Sounds like you're feeling pretty overwhelmed at the moment
Cry yourself out, sit in the shower, cry some more, finally be ready to sleep and realise you have to go to class, go to class a bit fuzzy because you're sleep deprived, come home and sleep
Classes last till 12 with another one at 2 and it’s the first week and I’ve already missed two classes and oh god oh fuck
Oh fuck and it’s Wednesday so I have another one from 3 till 6 Jesus Christ duck I fuck fuck fuck fuck
Hey, it's gonna be fine, I've gone to classes so tired that the lesson went in one ear and out the other. Ask some other students to help you write some notes on a day you're less sleepy or if you've really missed a lot of class then explain the problem to your professor and I'm sure they'll be willing to help you catch up. It's what they're paid for. There's always a way around things. There's no need to freak out.
Not sure what country you're in but do you have any avenues for lenient treatment due to depression? I remember having to do something similar, and that was only after I failed a contract law class because I didn't turn up to the exam (whoops) and then failed to get an exemption to retake the test (apparently I completed the class the next year but I have literally no memory of it).
I don't think it's an all or nothing proposition either, i.e. you could go to the 9am class and leave early, or miss the 9am class and go to the 2pm one. Or go to both and sleep during class. All better than not going to either because you're stressed and anxious about not going to either (stupid human brain logic)?
Thanks owl, appreciate it.
At an all time low rn and I really don’t know what to do :(
I don't know if this helps, but when I feel my lowest I always try to remember that the next day I usually feel fine and wonder why I was so down. All depression is different though so I hope someone here can give you better advice, lol.
Yeah thanks, I know it will pass it’s just a matter of, ya know, making it pass
I found this essential until the act of taking stimulants make me really sleepy in the first place
Interesting, I’ll give it a try sometime, but unfortunately I don’t think it will help with anxiety and never being able to fall asleep in under an hour, but hey worth a shot
i was gonna recommend some chamomile tea. Somehow benadryl and melatonin don't help me, but the tea does so definitely try it out if you haven't before
One, like 1:30 sleep is better than none.
Two, before I started using modafinil (has been amazing for my depression, you do not feel that depression tiredness so you can do stuff, and it kind of feeds in on itself), I'd usually do a ghetto 5-hour energy, i.e. 100mg caffeine pill, a b-complex vitamin, and some vitamin D. Surprisingly effective for not feeling like death. You could get one at a carry-out for $1.
I found a large component of my winter depression was a vitamin D deficiency, so definitely buy / steal one from your store. Everyone is deficient. Weirdly enough, it allowed me to smell again (before covid) never knew I had partially lost my sense of smell. Buy / steal the ones with like 5,000iu for deficiencies (10,000iu daily is the upper safe limit)
Ugh you’re definitely right, but fuck even the idea of trying to fall asleep is fucking crushing, looking at this site, even if it’s just looking at the same posts over and over again, is the only thing keeping me sane. I’ll look into the vitamin d, though isn’t that the one you get from the sun? I live in California and go outside almost daily, so I’d be surprised if that’s the case. I’m not a biologist tho I have no idea what the fuck I’m talking aboit
Yeah, still doesn't hurt to try supplementing for a week or two and seeing if that helps. Some 42% of Americans are vit D deficient, more in winter. They also fit real easy into coat pockets.
Shoutout to crying in bed but trying not to cry too hard because I don’t want to wake up my neighbors with thin ass walls, god that shit slaps
Desperately, but I don’t think I can here. Thanks for reaching out though
mindfulness helps me. breath all the air you possibly can 5 times exhaling slowly and steadily as possible count it down every breath when you hit 0 do 5 more breaths from there maybe try some other mindfulness guided stuff online thats what helps my existential anxiety. i also quit weed yesterday (after chronic daily use) and i already feel alot better idk if that applies but it may be something to cut out is all
I have trouble sleeping when my brain is racing and just lying quietly in bed makes it race all the more, and gives more room for it to bring up every bad thing possible to think about. One thing that works for me is to distract my brain enough to get sleepy, but not enough to keep me awake. At first I watched Disney cartoons because they're familiar enough to not get me too involved in the story to let me sleep, while being distracting enough to let my brain quiet down, but I felt like the light from the screen wasn't exactly helping with the falling asleep part. So I switched to listening to audiobooks, and that really works for me. I have a couple of books that I know very well and give me good feelings, and when my brain is racing and I can't fall asleep, I listen to those. I have them on my phone, but depending on how hard it is for you to put the screen down, you may want to consider getting a cheap mp3 player to load them on, so you aren't tempted to scroll.
If you have a library card, your library likely has a selection of digital audiobooks you can download for free. They probably have some on CD that you can rip as well. There's also Librivox, but that's only for books in the public domain. The readers are all volunteers, so there's a full range of quality, but I've found some pretty good stuff there.
The first step to getting yourself to sleep is putting yourself in bed, I know it's obvious and stupid and sucks, but like, just lay down in bed and even if you're too stressed to sleep lay there and don't get back up until your alarm (maybe have a shitload of alarms though if you're like me and will get to sleep right before 9am and won't get up easily)
but yeah, stress-sleeping sucks. look at melatonin and vitamin D maybe. I have never listened to this advice personally, but they always say to get off the computer/any screen for a while before you go to sleep, and I'm sure it helps.
but yeah, just get up for class and go even if you just fall asleep through the whole class. It'll help you get more on a sleep schedule and stuff like that and also I'm like 90% sure you still learn stuff by sleeping in class. If the prof gets mad about you sleeping just be honest and apologize but don't stop going to class.
um, yeah, idk what else to say other than that I absolutely know this feeling like the back of my hand. this just reminds me of that one time I was up studying for a 9am final and couldn't get to sleep at all and tried all of this stuff and wound up oversleeping and being late to the final.
