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talking about sex
I don't know, its embarrassing to even say.
I saw this so imma reply and be evil :> disregard if you want n sorry
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You deleted this so I won't pry or like reveal details of the post. I can say however, that testosterone blockers definitely took the "urgency" out. You will still get aroused but it hits different, dunno if it'll be exactly what you want but I find the feeling of libido on estrogen much more pleasant.
There's also a lot of personal internal stuff that goes into it as you probably know, like the way your perception of self changes will impact this too. With estrogen your mind really needs to be involved or nothing will happen, which takes more presence of mind but is better imo.
I don't think you're talking about consent, I trust you know how that works and will be fine. But I think if you wanna feel less "harangued" by those feelings, I think HRT will actually do that for you. I can only be so specific without being able to bug you, but you're fine y'know, and also it's nothing to be ashamed over either. ❤
No, don't be, you're fine.
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That's good, I am really hoping hrt helps with how I feel about it in general.
I do its just
I worry a lot about how I'm being taken. I don't want to be pushy, I don't want people to think I'm pushy, all that.
You can bug me. I might not answer though.
Oke ty, just try to respect people's privacy re: deleting but I had seen so I wanted to help yaknow
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It wouldn't surprise me if you just do not jive with sex drive on T in general, I sure as hell didn't! I can assure you it won't get any worse and it likely will get better, which is great, luv me estrogen etc etc =)
Okay no worries, the "pushy" thing can be read in two semiconnected ways to me: one is that you would feel harried and annoyed and pushed by the strong libido that often comes with T, and the other is that you're worried about your demeanour with other people. I assumed I don't need to lecture you about consent though, you're cool, you know stuff, so this is a little vague to me ig.
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Yea, I am very interested to see how E changes my like... feelings and stuff. Good to be reminded it won't get worse then this.
This is pretty spot on, I'm glad I was able to actually communicate my thoughts.
I understand consent, and yes, of course it stops, that is ez. I guess maybe my concerns are before that point? Like at the dating/flirting stage. I don't know. I don't want to make someone feel uncomfortable. Dating in general just gives me a lot of worry
I don't know I'm starting to feel weird again. Why must I feel so weird all the time. Heckin' autism I'm telling you.
Sorry for being vague, I am simply weird.
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Yea I would describe estrogen sex feels as being "softer" stereotypically, I guess. Very neat!
Okay cool, awesome! Good communication!!!
Yes autism, feelin weird, many such cases! Dating is like that too, if people think you're being too forward they should say so, I doubt it'll be a huge issue. Some people are sexually forward like that anyhow, y'know? It's good to keep in mind that you could make people uncomfortable, but I think as long as you are aware you're okay generally. You are allowed to express your sexual desires, even just a lil!!
Also don't be sorry, it's good to get this stuff out. I hope it helps to talk about it.
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I can't wait to feel all soft on E, omg.
I hope people are understanding of me
I will try to remember. Its hard for me to remember I can express myself in any way. Uh idk if that's autism or being trans but its a thing.
I do feel better now, thank you.
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I hope people will give you a little grace being an awkward autistic transfem, if it helps I never had issues with this kinda stuff. When it comes to dating people are more open and stuff I guess, y'know? I had great experiences mostly though, like yeah my ex was awful but navigating the dating world was not that hard tbh.
YOUR! FEELINGS! ARE! VALID! EXPRESS YOURSELF
Society tries to shame us but there is nothing wrong with how we are. Freedom to express your wants and desires personally is important u know.
Also, good, glad!
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I am pretty lucky, and I also exclusively date t4t so there is that. Mostly what I meant was that dating other trans and often autistic people, the navigating-social-norms part was not that difficult, y'know? I also never used dating apps, just happened to meet people, mostly online but sometimes not. The Dating General Megathread tells me that apps are fucked.
Can relate to the being-isolated thing, if my wife did not exist and I had to date now I would probably just go to coffee shops or bars and sit around awkwardly, awaiting a beautiful autistic lesbian hitting on me. That would not be a good strat I don't think, so y'know, it does suck.
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It's a bit, a lot of The Boys post in the general mega about their dating struggles, it is a thing. Death to dating apps!!!
You gotta get them local trans autistics, trans autistics make the world go round
Hope it works out for you, it's tough meeting people but worth it.
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UH OH EVERYONE, EGGNOG IS ASKING INVASIVE QUESTIONS AGAIN
The way you say that makes it sound like you are currently dating, are you poly? It usually sounds like you aren't but every now and again you say something like that and
Okay god, I know I've been bad and all but
please this is all I want for christmas.
No this is rad, I am very open to questions, I have a habit of talking abt myself y'know!!!
Lol I say it present-tense because like, I am t4t and will never not be. I am not poly, I've done it before but it's not really for me I think. I would adore getting headpats and affection from several partners, but I only really have the emotional bandwidth to fully engage with one person. Plus how many gay autistic transfemme techhead wlw-slop-reading people am I gonna find really? Plus plus my wife is strictly monogamous which is cool with me.
Oh no BountifulEggnog has been bad
We do love our beautiful autistic lesbians, don't we folks????
Okay cool, I know you usually are up for questions. That all makes a lot of sense, cool you tried it though.
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I hope they give me grace too
I deserve it.
I'll try
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Maybe I’m just a huge bottom, or maybe I’ve just been on some form of hrt for so long, but I feel like my sexuality has always been kind of passive.
I mostly masturbate just because I’m bored, I don’t really feel an “urge” or something pushing me like I need to and I can’t remember if that was ever the case or not anymore.
I definitely did some cringey things as a teenager cuz I was horny I guess, so maybe.
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Ive also got a super receptive/reactive sexuality. Like, its really hard to get in the mood without another person being more active and whatnot. But it gets difficult cause like i want to be persued, but not just wholesale its gotta be in a specific manner. Idk, i havent interrogated those processes all that much.
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Always found my libido to be a nuisance. Just something I had to deal with, sorta like having to pee and poo. Glad HRT reduced that. Seems to come back some, but seems to be a little different.
Sex isn't really of interest either way, so can't say anything about being pushy with others.
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That's how I felt about sex and sexuality before hrt, I didn't like it.
That makes me feel very hopeful that it will change once I get hormones
Can confirm that hrt definately helps a lot with this. You still get horny, but it’s less consuming if you know what I mean. Like you can have horny thoughts but it’s easier to ignore them or focus on something else